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Monday, December 03, 2007

A Post Dated 30th Nov 07 . . .

. . . by a really very important friend.

i read and cried.

well, its none of my business actually. but i just feel in the same boat one way or another.
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Saturday, September 08, 2007

Outings!

happy happy happy x)

probly having a chalet with the guys before sean gets into ns on 15th oct..

ting finishing her event tomorrow, she say after that i can find her ^^ ting ting, my tiles are lonely.. do u hear them screaming for you? =p

yujun is coming back from china on 12th sept, most likely have a choc fondue party for her at amos hse next weekend. wahaha! belvedere vodka + chocolate fondue!!

xD count your blessing once a day, keeps u sane and gay ^^
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Friday, September 07, 2007

Inner Circle

an outing we had at ming's home on 2nd feb this year
(bubu is the one with the muscular arm LOL)

i was lamenting to yin sean aka bubuzai that i had been always working working and working all these years through school days in poly and now full time work. end up i m never in the "inner circle" of friendships.

cos on the possitive side, even if people who adores me wants me to join in the fun, i would most likely be working somewhere. so as time goes by, people who still adores me will not try to get me to join them. and as more time goes by, i m out of the inner circle of friends.

on the negative side, i might be too anal to a lot of people and end up no one will want me even if i roll around my house all day.

bubu says:

since when u become so pessimistic?

from the dawn of time (of our friendship), i had been the optimistic one who keep coming up with overly hopeful ideas be it in fun things or schooling matters; bu had always been the anal and pessimistic stubborn donkey.

but actually, i've always been pessimistic at times, just that he haven seen me in that mode often enough to remember in this 6 years of friendship hahaha..

5 years back, i would never ever have imagined that there would be a day that bubu would be counselling me, thinking of ideas to cheer me up x)

cos in our bunch of friends, with all of them being boys, i would be the one who would try such stunts. and mind you, one year i tried to celebrate bubu's birthday and he scold me k~ dunno why he don't like to celebrate. probly cos he never liked to be in the limelight.

bu said:

probly your bunch of friends are not the spontaneous kind who would organize things. [at this point i typed to bu: *joyce points at sean*]

you noe la, usually in a bunch muz have someone initiative to pull everyone in ma. but hor, when we go seasports, though we know you hydrophobic, we still got think about you! veron got mention you lor.

and the initiative one is usually me.

eventually, our chat drifted to that about an events company that had selected bu to be one of the mascots to hand out sanitary pads to ladies on the street LOL.

and drifted to who had been the one who intro him the job..

and he showed me the gal's blog.. and i asked him:

god. thought engine gals are army material, how u get to know her man.

bu says through his fren. but he haven been in contact with her after sending in the resume.

i say: oh wells, i doubt she's your kind anyway. you're too stuck in the earth.

and the following lines goes our conversation:

sean* says:
as long can communicate and certain important fundamentals and chemistry. it should work well

joyce says:
^^

joyce says:
sounds like your thoughts has been steam straight out at sea

joyce says:
on a side note, i still haven figure out how to use a steamer as an iron

joyce says:
i juz couldnt get the coat straight the other day at studio

sean* says:
u're asking someone with a maid

sean* says:
more steam = more straight?

joyce says:
LOL

joyce says:
in porno term yes, more steam = more straight LOL

sean* says:
i'm more interested in Phono

joyce says:
phono is wad

sean* says:
i have no clue about ironining

sean* says:
u rmb olden days big black disc?

sean* says:
phonograph

sean* says:
i own one now

sean* says:
i have teresa teng's, michael jackson, blah blah, stylistics

sean* says:
the original singer for gasby wax song

sean* says:
lets play board games next week

joyce says:
expensive wor

sean* says:
ask gavin and whoever is considered "inner circle" within us

sean* says:
u full time leh

joyce says:
no wonder i so love u, u noe me best

joyce says:
i full time but i muz pay house utility oso leh

sean* says:
fund management

joyce says:
ha u noe i suk at that

joyce says:
play mahjong la cheaper.

sean* says:
yea indeed

joyce says:
LOL

joyce says:
set. though i noe you "yea indeed" implies to how i suk at fund management =p

sean* says:
also can

sean* says:
but i sure lose money

sean* says:
ha ha

sean* says:
but its ok

sean* says:
ok u arrange [:D]

sean* says:
can can?

joyce says:
hahaha or something else like cycling or sentosa ba

joyce says:
i go ask. but a bit tough now that i lost all the contact numbers

sean* says:
sentosa i'm on

joyce says:
haha i trying to turn white lor LOL. kk we see wad we can do

sean* says:
my bike's shaft broke

joyce says:
=.=

joyce says:
nvm u drive

joyce says:
oh amos going for TP on monday

joyce says:
OH YA I NEED TO GO TP

sean* says:
its meaninless to drive

joyce says:
THE LIBRARY BOOK WITH ME LATE FOR ONE YEAR LIAO

joyce says:
...

joyce says:
i tink i need pay instalment for the fine hahaha

sean* says:
ur cert needs to bail out

joyce says:
ya

sean* says:
tell them u lost la

joyce says:
hmm still muz pay fine

sean* says:
fine lesser

joyce says:
cos haven report

sean* says:
who ask u la

sean* says:
hey i need to sleep already

joyce says:
kkk tata. one morning we go TP la before i go work

sean* says:
i'll contact u when i decide which activity to take

joyce says:
lol k

sean* says:
what time ur work..

joyce says:
1pm

sean* says:
ok sounds fine

sean* says:
ok cya

brotherhood & sisterhood.
how long how far apart, a greeting is all it takes to rekindle the bond.

bubu's words are in pink
cos he is the only one in our group
that wears pink
other then me x)
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Friday, July 27, 2007

Thank God for the Wisdom . . .

. . . to stop myself from sending those smses to retaliate on impulse, though i was very hurt by those words at that time.

cos all i thought was i haven met her for a long time, and i have just gotten my pay, i really don't mind treating her supper cos she muz be financially tight since haven got a job.

when her reply sounds quite relax, i didn't thought much of it, but replied and ask so as to clarify what her last message was actually about.

sometimes when people live directly opposite a damn huge lake and grasslands nearby, and in Singapore, and when its the season for Dengue, you need not have fever to scare the shit outta yourself that you have dengue. a mosquito bite accompanied by red spots would be sufficient. and besides, the weather suddenly turn cool, so many people got flu. so it makes things more difficult to understand sometimes.

therefore when i got the reply that sounded relac, of cos i didnt thought much.

Me: where u? wan meet me a while?
Reply: i m home trying very hard to figure out if i am having dengue
Me: har? that means you are having fever now and cannot come out?

kcuf. i forgot to keypad lock my phone, the message got deleted.

anyway, the reply says something like:

wtf kinda question you asking. if you need someone at the moment sry i cant be there; in fact i think i would need someone more urgently if this kcuf-ing fever don't go down.

i was standing at bugis village bus stop, thinking how should be the fastest way to get down to meet her, how would be the best way to not spend too much moola for us both, if she haven have enough how much can i pay for her.

the first reaction i have when i got the message, i cry.

when i recover from the shock, i got angry.

the first reply that came to my mind was:

perra, htf do i noe wtf is exactly wrong when you sound like you are fine, i just want to clarify that i did not interpreted the sms wrongly. i don't kcufing need your sympathy for kcuf's sake, if you had been nice to me so far cos you are merciful and not cos you cherish me as a friend, i rather be alone. and btw, i am not a unwanted puppy at SPCA. kcuf.

i typed and deleted the message twice. cos now that i noe she's sick, i m in a dilemma as to be angry or wad. but i m very hurt, with my style i can never take this lying down.

and all these happen when i had a slight arguement with amos and problems at work.

i couldn't bear taking bus 12 for 1 hour plus to get home with all that grievance in me. wanted to get a cab but can't flag any. good that i called one and nearly immediately got one.

even better, my phone battery flat so i can't call her back and F her upside down, giving her a piece of my mind. oh btw, in the first place its cos my phone low batt hence the sms-convo hence the misunderstanding cos i can't hear how ~~sick~~ she sounded.

i got up the cab, thought for a while. the air con cooled me down. i snatched the phone from the cab driver and called her. k not exactly snatched. i is no robber.

i asked the uncle if he can lend me his phone to make a call cos mine is low batt. then he was pretty reluctant. but already taking out, just that still trying to make me understand that he has a earphone joint to the phone, so its very troublesome to lend me the phone.

kcuf, scrooge.

i say: sorry uncle, don't worry i will put back for you
while my hands already stretch over and pluck the phone out.

the uncle was quite grouchy for the rest of the journey though the phone call was only 2 minutes.

i called her and ask her whats up. she told me why she's so flared up cos everyone has been OVERLY CONCERNED and had been telling her:

are u dengue? i m worried. for goodness sake go do a blood test.

like as if she does not already register that statement in her mind. she just needs to know if she is with that scary epidemic. though these people are concerned no doubt, but their statements are totally inconstructive and retarded.

i told her i m on my way back to east side, i can bring her to the 24 hour ah neh clinic (btw, the doctor looks like Suren, he offers many days of MC the last time jacq went to him LOL)

i can hear how frighten she is then. literally shaky voice.

i just cant be angry anymore but get worried cos she's usually ultimate garang-ness.

if i was the one in the case of worrying and suspecting if i m having dengue, i would be pestering her and whining, then she'll be tempted to slap and she will say:

you think i look like doctor isit. you sit here and whine will get well isit. go see doctor la!

when she slightly calmed down later on, through her groggyness she still remember that she was nasty to me LOL.

she blogged:
OKAYS! after i typed so much.. joycie just told me halley kena twice [i thought i told you he got it thrice?] so i asked him abt it. now i'm feeling better! though i still dunno if it is dengue. roar!
i ask many qns n he tried to ans until he said.. "hard to say de leh " "dengue got 4 kinds lehz"

roar!

aiya. i should be ok la.. still can be high n crap around. mood still swing like fuck. just like the normal pms me ma.

sorry to those that i responsed quite harshly. =/

joyce, i really appreciate that u wanna accompany me to the clinic. u are the ONLY person who offer me that. LOL. but when u ask, i am already too paranoid n tired that i dun wanna care. and sorry cos i sounded quite bad.

thanks halley! for all ur information and wanting to try find the time if i need to see a chinese doc!

i'm off to rest now! x) going for blood test tml! i have no idea why am i so fucking excited! LOL.
once again, thanks joyce! thanks halley! thanks all for ur concern!

what i want to say is, thank god for blessing me with the wisdom to forgive and stop and think for others before my own ego.

if not i would have lost a friend that i love a lot a lot today.

seriously, a lot of times if she drives me nuts as much as my silly antics drive her nuts sometimes. with my usual temperament in life, i will never let anyone have a second try at me, i will definitely kcuf that person upside down and ignore for life.

but i really thank god to let me have the wisdom to love to cherish.

very blessed.

amos say i m a better person from 6 years ago, compared to the little girl who dunno how is busy protecting herself and hiding from people. i think my cookie really changed me a lot a lot, in terms of good and bad influences. ting and momo too..

now, i want to stretch my luck a bit. i hope i will be blessed with this wisdom to be a better person to love all the other very very important people in my life, as well as my work.
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Friday, June 08, 2007

Must cut nails.

eh i good gal right. 9pm sharp then i start to skive =P

no la. waiting for my colleague, Han to drop by studio. han, pris and me going for dinner at Sweet Secrets to celebrate Han's ORD. ORD Loh~! lets welcome the full time artist aka professional photographer + book binder 0.o =P

supposedly having dinner with the other guys in studio, but Sam is shooting a wedding, Rueyloon, George and Lawrence most likely off to meet their fiancee / girlfriend / wife.

wahaha. just feel like posting an entry so post lor. then do some follow ups while waiting for Han.

as the topic says: must cut nails.

haix.. QQ de Ma~ i shld have listened to you =/ i think the pimples on my t-zone and left right on the part of the cheek next to the nose is bcos of my nails leh. especially when i rub rub my eyes then my nail hit the t-zone there =/ that why always same spot pimple. shit la lidat i muz pluck my teeth also. cos of the sharp sharp teeth near the left and right of my mouth's corners, i always got ulcer at the same spot. 0.0"

kk rubbish. nvm. today is a funny day. funny from side viewers, almost torturous for sam though.

huo bu dan xing ar. (trouble don't come alone.)

first thing in the morning, he realise that the address of the bride which i smsed him don't have the unit number =.= .....

tried calling the groom but can't get.

then he bump into the photographer, and just follow him up.. LOL.

then when he was shooting, got peoples call him ask him this invoice that invoice and the other quotation. damn stress de.

when he return, he already rushing for time.

rueyloon was experimenting on sam's table ytd nite. he shot a photo of life size items on sam's table, shifted some of the items away, and put some on top of the image. so look like real + fake.

then plus george was trying to ask him something also...

he got distracted while taking out the DV tape, the tape broke 0.0!!!

k nvm, he got it mended. but george got scolded LOL *george says "whhhhhhaaaattt..." + innocent face*

he was damn hungry, wanted some food. so i went to buy from the not-so-nice-not-so-fresh-foodstall. after i ordered, pris was on the way to studio, she asked if sam wants the famous nasi bryani from tekka market. of cos want! but.. i can't cancel my order =x so end up, he ate the fried rice i bought.

then throughout the time he was editing his express highlight, a lot of people come irritate him with a lot of questions and calls LOL =x

when it was nearly the time to leave for the banquet, it started raining 0.0..............

i said: nvm, rain good. then the event-full day will turn smooth aft the rain. Yu Guo Tian Qing. (it always shines aft the rain)

then he nearly forgot to take something, pris took and remind him bout it.

Sam says: Praise the Lord! this is very impt!
Pris whispers: very impt? praise me la why praise the Lord? LOL

pris barely finished her words, the CD cover broke. LOL!!!

nvm, can put back de LOL.

heh. Sam barely stepped out, a client getting married on Sunday but still considering to take videography service at all, suddenly decided to come down in 15minutes to sign contract and pay deposit LOL!

see? it always shines after the rain~~~!

LOL.

9.38pm Han just called: eh dun eat so ex, i juz got retrench. remember? i ORD today leh.

i say: eh dude, u left for greener pasture k~ high flying job~~!

lolx. k dinner time. Tata~~~!

** pardon the formating of this post, cos i using macintosh's safari, so cant use the rich text interface to type this post.
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Tuesday, May 29, 2007

x)

i got to really know this crazy kup po in march 06.

crazy nitelong mahjongs, r&b booming away along tampines avenue 10, suppers nearly every other nite, clubbing, studying for tests till morning at #81, #4831 machiam school bus in the dawn but sending kids home instead of to school.

whining about nearly everything to him and from him.

when i was broke, and he too, he stuffed half of what he has in his pocket to me.

"i is everybody's boyfren x) i feed my girlies"

haha sounds like a sugar daddy, superficially.

the first time i know that he is detaching himself from his very close friends, he was willing to open up his thoughts to me. but i made a very bad mistake of getting too close. cos the nex time, i'm shut out too. and it hurts, cos i really put he and her as friends very very close to my heart. if i never stand so close to them, i guess it wouldnt hurt that much even if they shut the whole world out. haiz.

i dunno why and cannot understand why. why would he be calling me from overseas a week ago, and a week later when he returns, he no longer answer any calls, return any calls, sms or msn message..

how can i say that he is such a close fren if i can't understand what is happening?
truth betold, i know. i choose not to believe only.

i cried to my boyfren when he closed me out with the others. i told my boyfren not to tell him i went clubbing cos exam was too near and he forbid me from going. i cried when he's overseas internship confirmed. i cried when he no longer answers my calls and smses. i cried today when he act blur and tried to cheer me up when i was trying to prompt him to tell me why had he been disappearing from us. i cried when he told me why.

i m crying now cos i know i won't get to see him till my wedding day or my funeral. unless ... .. ..... ... ='(

i will try not to cry again, cos i got the answer, i have to face the answer which i long had in my heart. all i can say again is

陈洁仪 ~ 天冷就回来

渐渐对着收音机
学唱新的歌
我问朋友为什么
做梦也快乐
朋友笑说
他从不相信梦
我想出去走一走
朋友点点头
天冷你就回来
别在风中徘徊
朋友的眼里有明白
还有一份期待
天冷我想回家
年少已经不再
今天的雨点洒下来
那滋味就是爱

to love is to let go.

my dearest friend, though the dilemma that i would not be able to hear those crazy laughters of yours, nor you sharing the joy looking at my mahjong tiles over my shoulder, running down the stairs when u heard i got 地胡, nor the times when u would say silly girl or gcb me when i do something dumb;

but on the contrary, if i do get the above back, it would mean u r shattered once again..

i rather u be away and be happy, then coming back to us and cheering everyone but yourself.

but please.. don't stay out when you are down, when u are down and out, we're all 24/7 a call away. especially your mistress, whom would be called adulteress if u still call her mistress now LOL. hor? mrs tan~ LOL.

i guess i won't cry le. even if i do is tears of joy as i reminise the short but good times.

please be happy sillymo.

as u have said, let fate drive us. but dude, u better remember your promise.. 10th August 2020, its a public holiday. i is waiting for your "objections" .

*i noe what chen tai tai will say: can slap her pls, machiam his gf.*
eh juz now he say u his mistress, worse la =P
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Friday, May 18, 2007

Give.

Christians have this saying that sounds something like that, some where.. think i learnt it from Huiling or Pastor Prince on one of the church session i tag along with huiling to New Creations.

U give a portion of your harvest to God, he will return you, somehow, 7 fold.

Let me pick someone from 217 and give an example, please note that it does not mean that the rest are asses and this guy is an angel. it so happen that its convenient to use him as an example cos he sits beside me and i hear that often LOL.

e.g. When we do our best for our works and take the extra metre to help our clients a little even with things not related to our contract scope, as though its our own wedding, its but a gesture that requires few minutes, but the clients would be happy and become customer advocates and recommend other couples to us.

When that happens, in Sam's words, he would say: Praise the Lord, God is Good.

Either Confucian or one of the old man said:

lao wu lao, yi ji ren zhi lao; you wu you, yi ji ren zhi you.
[treat other people's elders like yours, treat other people's young like yours]

Someone, somehow, somewhere along the way said:

what goes around, comes around.

My Physics Teacher Mr Pang said:

Potential Energy = Kinetic Energy

Elaine Koh (Amos's mum, an entrepreneur) says:

don't so gei gao and plan your steps so carefully and scared people eat your advantage. instead of saving those little benefits, if you have been more benevolent, you would earn more.

Today I say:

mai gei gao. zh'o l'ang hum hum, pua p'eh jia wu l'ang lai tum. [don't be so calculative. be humble, when u sick then got people visit] be sincere. don't wei li shi tu. [don't only do things for the sake of returns]

met someone today that is bloody gei gao. ngeow ga chu't zhup [stingy until he stinks with stingy-juice]. if he is not so gei gan, i believe he would have learnt much more, everyone would have love to share with him much more, and his work would have been dozen folds better.

*shake head*

to think he goes to church on sundays and listens to Pastor Prince's sessions. to think he is Christian, wears a cross, owns a bible but like what Dan was saying of a bible today: eh.. not enlightened wan.. no highlight or writing inside =_=

anyways, as mentioned in the above samples of who-say-what, it is obvious that what i m trying to say is:

give when you can. don't bother yourself so much by being so gei gao. instead of just seeing mis-favors done by people onto you, why don't highlight to yourself what you may have been gei gaoing with people that makes them gei gan you. then again, as Peter says: The Yellow Pages Syndrome patients are 9.5 outta 10 people you meet. it is always convenient to Point Fingers to others and not facing oneself's mistakes.

you people reading this, please be a dear and remind me when my Yellow Pages Syndrome acts up ya.

btw, gei gan = gei gao + gan b*

as of today, thou resolut to use lesser vulgarity in my blog.
thou resolut to take care of my face more so that i can have another photoshoot in near future and get onto the gallery of models in Lawrence's friendster =_=
thou also resolut to become and maintain whiter complexion so that i can wear a red gown and the day red-Kua like the one Kate wore on her wedding (if you are lucky u can view it on vocaremedia.com ~ videos ~ Jeff&Kate's Wedding Highlight)

i is shanghainese, why is me not white~! i mite yearn for black when i turn whiter. doesnt matter. now i want WHITE.

Conversation with Mag on the phone over dinner:

Jo: tomolo wan acc me go BarFly? my friend got contacts and bottles, so no need 21 / 23 =x
Mag: eh my friends advance booked me for clubbing tomolo and next week go Attica liao paisei.
Jo: ai seH. k i book you 1st wk of June. club. dunno where. but hor, most prob wednesday. cos i might be retrenched liao.
Mag: har! serious ar.
Jo: ya. depends on how the guys' discussion goes lor. either retrenched in 2 weeks or probation 2 more months.
Mag: oh..
Jo: if i retrench we go interview together at singapore casket la. i take cab pass by, seems the renov is done leh.
Mag: eh can consider leh.
Jo: ya lor. the florist downstairs looks good.
Mag: ya lor ya lor.
Jo: eh i be florist u be make up artist there la. you so good at doing make up.
Mag: ya can consider.

LOL. sibei crap lor. we talk until got dragon got pheonix la.

heard a good news today, our friend June aka Sam has broke up with her crap shit boyfriend.

hoorays! no wonder i tink her pics on friendster looks better these days.

cheers to good girls rid of maggot boyfriends who don't appreciates them.
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Monday, May 14, 2007

5 Minutes Break

Never give out your password or credit card number in an instant message conversation. To help prevent infection by a computer virus or worm, never accept or open any file or link in an instant message until you verify its authenticity with the sender.

*naf magiquement M' says: (4:04:47 PM) lol.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:04:47 PM) ya la.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:04:50 PM) nobody ask me go to.
joyce says: (4:07:58 PM) lol
joyce says: (4:08:14 PM) look at the date
joyce says: (4:08:18 PM) broke liao ma
joyce says: (4:08:20 PM) lol
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:08:44 PM) my pay is very little.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:08:47 PM) so for me to be broke is ok.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:08:58 PM) but how can anyone else be worse than me when i'm paid only 700!
joyce says: (4:09:04 PM) !
joyce says: (4:09:09 PM) take home 700?!
joyce says: (4:09:11 PM) god
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:09:29 PM) ya.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:09:32 PM) afte cpf.
joyce says: (4:09:53 PM) i tink u will be better off selling cosmetics at ettusai or clinique.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:10:33 PM) thats e prob la.
joyce says: (4:11:06 PM) ur skin so gd sure can get the job
joyce says: (4:11:13 PM) btw the uniform is pretty
joyce says: (4:11:17 PM) *drools*
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:12:46 PM) ...
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:12:49 PM) i dont wanat.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:12:56 PM) i rather be an undertaker.
joyce says: (4:13:15 PM) eh recently bad weather
joyce says: (4:13:21 PM) undertaker very busy
joyce says: (4:13:25 PM) good job!
joyce says: (4:13:28 PM) LOL
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:13:37 PM) ya.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:13:39 PM) considering lei.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:13:43 PM) think later go ask my friend.
joyce says: (4:13:47 PM) mai tu liao
joyce says: (4:13:51 PM) go lavender ask
joyce says: (4:14:03 PM) but now they got renovation dunno want hire ppl onot leh
joyce says: (4:14:12 PM) eh there good leh
joyce says: (4:14:17 PM) knn we can share cab home
joyce says: (4:14:20 PM) near me
joyce says: (4:14:28 PM) aft work can go dbl o
joyce says: (4:14:30 PM) wahaha
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:14:37 PM) they renovate sibei long lei.
joyce says: (4:14:41 PM) no leh
joyce says: (4:14:46 PM) i walk pass
joyce says: (4:14:54 PM) the lobby area renov leh
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:15:06 PM) wah.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:15:21 PM) when my grandparents pass away like last yr or last last yr renovating le lei.
joyce says: (4:15:34 PM) eh good working condition leh
joyce says: (4:15:44 PM) keep upgrading the place freq sia
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:15:45 PM) ya lo.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:15:54 PM) business too good right!
joyce says: (4:15:58 PM) then downstairs got the florist
joyce says: (4:16:08 PM) u can get a rose a day to up your mood!
joyce says: (4:18:17 PM) eh i go back to work liao
joyce says: (4:18:23 PM) i is gonna put this conv on my blog
joyce says: (4:18:24 PM) LOL
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:18:53 PM) wahahaha.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:18:54 PM) sure la.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:18:57 PM) if i funeral director.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:19:05 PM) next time..i give u discount.
joyce says: (4:19:10 PM)ya
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:19:12 PM) i mean, on the flowers.
joyce says: (4:19:21 PM) then if jasmin buy got buy big give small for teri rite
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:19:39 PM) nb.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:19:42 PM) u want to die huh.
*naf magiquement M' says: (4:19:54 PM) let her see this. u on fire ald. i havent even change job.

LOL. i don't usually on MSN at work, cos i dunno how to be ninja and chat without getting caught, and i don't like to chat at work. was having lunch, on MSN for a bit, was wanting to check the spree status with my cousin. saw mag online and chatted rubbish for a bit LOL.

mag was bored outta the shit from her job, and wants a more busy job. i recommend her to be cosmetic promoter. hence the conversation...

eh must clarify the last line. i don't mean to curse or irritate jasmin la. just that when mag type the discount part, i tot she also know me n jasmin's usual joke. cos last time when i sleeping jasmin call me i will kp her: knn salah tian wei la. coffin shop here, what you want buy. now promotion buy big get small la. then just nice ma, big for human small for dog ma =X ***touchwood***

ah. i love my job. but i gotta leave soon le. cos i is not good enough.

come to tink of it, i always love my jobs while i'm at it. but i really love this one.

seriously, ji lai zhi, ze an zhi. i always felt, since i'm at it, wouldnt it be torturing if i keep lamenting and allowing myself to think that the job sux? but then again, i always gets jobs i love. even though there's always the shitty times which is really bad. like some of those days in villa bali and shunjuu and kingstone and whatever. but at the end of the day, carve the goodness on rocks, draw the sadness in the sand, the wind will carry away the sadness eventually, and life goes on, collectively, with the goodness carved for remembrance in times of sadness.
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Thursday, May 10, 2007

To Love is to Let Go.

loads of things happened over the weekend.. wanted to blog about it.. cos its a continual to several posts i have posted earlier.. but i m tired, and i dun wan to tink much about it now.. cos its something that is no past no present no future. after all, fate has it that way, n i've made my choice, no point saying so much bout it.

but today i read a friend's blog, she said:

now everyone has been very nice.
repetitively telling me to move on
he's not worth it yada yada.
(excuse me!)
its not that i dont want to.
but its hard on me.
i'm trying my best to share my feelings.
but why do i often feel so compelled to agree?

was in the forum discussing about matters of the heart the other day, when a man asked me:

ain't we all victims of love?

nope we ain't. cos real love is selfless, not selfish, not self-centred.

actually, what prompts me to this post is not just the words of the man in the forum, but cos of 2 men in my life whom taught me some things over the weekend, or rather over the years, in their subtle, protective way. but thats a story for another day...

the man himself forgave his wife of 17years when she attempted suicide bcos her lover is leaving her. at that time, the man and his wife has 3 daughters, the oldest 16yrs old, the youngest 2 years old. though painful on his side, he was ready to forgive his wife and take her back home and start anew. but she could not face these. soon after, with the excuse that she is on a business trip, she flew off and when she reach her destination, she told him sorry she could not bring herself to go back to the family and face her children after what she has done.

the man out of true love for his wife, is able to forgive her, and even mediate between the wife and her lover. though painful to be witnessing and bearing all these, not to mention the emo children who were throwing temper around the house and stuff, but his pain would not be more than the wife. cos she who was blinded by her selfish lust and greed for greener pastures has made her pass the point of no return. and cos of her own selfishness, she will never be able to come to peace with herself. hence, the one who holds the true love will never be the victim.

very simple. cos he love her, he forgives and lets her go; if she's meant to be his wife for the rest of this life time, even if she fled to north pole, she'll still be back.

sometimes letting go, or leaving, is also a way of showing love.

albeit that the above are theory, and most people would not be able to come to peace with oneself like the above mentioned man, this IS the way of life.

often we all know what is right, what is wrong, but its more often than not fear, greed and self-centredness festing us, blindfolding us, making us go rounds and rounds instead of taking the straight route to peace. cos our ego says: buay gum wan. ai piA jiA ei YAH!

darling, i understand that everyone has been telling you he sucks, including me, and you have been a sweet dear feeling compelled to agree. well, you felt compelled to agree cos to a certain extent, you know its right. but there just is a certain thing in us that holds us back. sometimes it fools us that its love that is holding us back, but more often than not, it isnt.

you might be a little pissed partly cos you are trying to get a listening ear, but they are all over-concernly throwing their logics at you passionately hoping that you will just take it and get better (at least they thought you would get better) but partly, you might be a little pissed cos what they are saying are facts you long knew.

i am not saying that these pain are nobody's fault but yours, please don't misunderstand.. this is a mistake that all human will have at least once in life.. but the thing is, whine as much as you deserves like what your friend says, but please, wake up in time to embrace life. cos life will not pause showing its wonder to you while you grieve. i believe this time you are taking longer to recover no doubt cos of the experience you had with him, but also cos this is a tough period when you are transiting throught to a different stage in life - whole new working world with whole new what the fuking dog shit challenges with the least hints and clues you are ever given. *fuk my room got mosquito, yours have? lets go complain to town council nb.*

to let go is also a form of expressing love sometimes. this love when you are able to express, would be for both him, you and people around you who are quietly heartaching looking at you wilting away these days while not being able to let go.

i know, every single pair of eyes reading this post so far would be thinking:

knn, not you, you say until so sonG,
nb see when u kana ditch what you do.
god knows how many fire engine and police car we must utilize.

that is why, while i is sober, while i is not in this emo-shit yet, thank god that you are reminding me of such a thing, and i is also reminding you with the above words, so that if i do unfortunately face such a day, please be a dear and remind me of my words today.

*hugs*
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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Special Mentions Part 1

~~Heibi Hiam~~ Halley Sim is always lost somewhere or purpurly lost himself somewhr that i cant dig him out at times, and we squabble nearly always, but bro is bro - a call away. n he got me a nice bracelet on my birthday this yr, and chauffeur us around in amos's papa's van. though the bracelet is he bought on impulse when he was walking around one day n see it nice so he bought - aimlessly. then my bday he decided to give me lolx. he is almost one of the more sensible people i noe these years, but oso one of those uber irrational n menses all year person. contradicting leh. though i dun go too near most of the time, to avoid making us hate each other over heated squabblings, but i still love him ya.

i remember the year when we went shoppin for bday prezzie of someone, he told me to choose a necklace for her, but end up he quietly bought it for me cos i like it.

its 26th December 2001 that he become my brother on bus 17.

y the special mention. cos juz feel like mentioning lor. no worries, he's alive. lolx.
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Sunday, April 22, 2007

Congratulations~ in Jubilations~

WooHoo~! now i noe what is ting's favourite drink:

Gin & Tonic

wahahahha~! so happy but so sad oso =/ cannot tag tag le =/

nvm, for this year still can tag tag weekdays wahahaha~! Gin Tonic only can drink on Friday & Saturday~! =P or we 4 can go settlers heeheehee...

i betta run off to the new Giant with my neighbour, Magdalene, before i tio hoot after yiting finish dinner with her parents =x

yiPpEE~! so happy~! =P
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Monday, April 16, 2007

Long Story Short Say

nb. i type damn long, left last sentence, my mozilla got error. cb.

ba. aint gonna retype, anyway dun hav photos today cos i lying on my bed and typing this damn post.

conclusion:

Thanks sweeties~! for making my birthday a happy one, making me feel important and special to you! thanks for all the well wishes and prezzies, and to those who took out time and effort and moeny to go out with me~!

celebrated my birthday is 5 parts. with jas mag amos wilson jeremy and marcus, with space217, with ziqing, with amos yiting halley and GT, and with juz my big cookie spending quality time this weekend ^^

got my prezzies that i wished for, got the wireless keyboard and mouse from space217 guys thx to lawrence who saw my blog and gather the guys to share and he went shopping for it ^^ that y no photos today cos i lying on my bed with my wireless keyboard and mouse ahaha. got the chocobanana cake too! the cake is damn huge, and i is so honoured to have famous $200/hr photographer GeorgIE woNG to take picture, and $350/hr Rufus's papa to video me blow candle~!!! heh heh heh..

got my yanzi album from yiyin. felt so bad that i didnt made it down to her chalet, cos by the time i finish dinner with ziqing and rush back to east side to meet amos n halley is already 9+ which is our reservation at settlers le.

i was wishing to hear from he and him cos they haven been contacting me or even replying me lately.. i wanted to know if its cos i irritated he or hurt him. glad to know that its neither!

she told me that he juz mia from our circle or their circle to be exact. so it isnt me being irritating that this happen.

i met him finally after 2 yrs.. he is still him, still as bollywood and boyish, when he is with me and when he is with his family. he is still him wanting to get me the best things he can afford. he is still him treating me like a little girl. even though now that he has a high flying job, he is still him, the silly donkey i've always known, instead of the stern donkeys in his kinda job. LOL. i'm so happy to hear how he has been doing these years, how he had been on off dating at least 4 gals in uni, had his first job 90hrs a week paying him 18k a month.

he is good to me not cos of any other reasons ba. cos he is still him, me is still me. i is concerned cos after all he was a person i felt for long time ago. i juz want to know a happily ever after for him too. after all, though he often bluff me silly things cos he finds my gullible expression entertaining sometimes, but i noe he has been treating me sincerely all these years. come to tink about it, i've known him for 9 years... wow. most of the time apart though, guess we're juz not fated haha.

had quality time with my cookie this weekend ^^ he brought me around and treated me good foods. and though he didnt get to play warcraft much yesterday, he wasnt grouchy today and he brought me to east coast to blade x) after that we went to a cosy little restaurant Miss U Cafe for dinner. its pretty dumb. the last time we had our desserts only and a drink each, we spent 20+, this time we had main course and drink, and shared a dessert, we spent 50+. ok la. the main course is not that bad. but be careful when choosing the dishes. some are juz not worth the price.

even though i wished for loads of stuff, but getting these are enough le. especially when all of it seems nearly impossible to happen, but i was surprised by it happening. no point getting all wishes granted. then will hav nothing in life to look forward to, to work hard for. like he said, when he was earning 18k a month, he got nearly all he wanted. to the point when money is juz growing like a figure in his bank but he has no more anticipation. but the work was too taxing and no life, and since he hasnt much to anticipate anymore, he settles himself with a 3k a mth job working 9 -5, but still quite stressful. after all, handling other ppl's money is stressful lor.
its impressive that a 24 yr old gets his own rolex cos he earned it, not cos of his family's wealth lor. i want to be that cool too LOL.

btw, i was asking amos if he minded me going out with him, he said:

why should i mind? you'r juz gg out with your fren ma. and bsides, the one who has the right to be upset should not be me since i m not as impressive as him, but u have been with me for years.

i love my cookie's big heart.. the statement might sound proud, but if you are one who knows my boy well enough, you would know he meant it sincerely without any attacking meaning.

tml is work again, i muz succeed this wk =_=!
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Monday, April 09, 2007

1/4 Birthday Celebration..

.. cos Yi Ting was in Malaysia, and kenny couldnt smoke pass the ticket person at GV to let him refund his ticket, my cake is not there, and more reasons.

heh. was intending to only celebrate on actual day since yiting is away, mag n jas juz return shld be pretty tired. but after work while having dinner with space217 guys, the gals called and ask if i wanna go out celebrate since mag might not be able to make it nex fri since she's starting a new job.

so pooF! went to dempsey to visit Marcus at his new workplace: Love Affair. a wine wine chill chill place. was there with amos, jasmin, mag, wilson and jeremy (amos's ~~ex-gay and current-gay~~ buddy in camp)

met hazel whom i missed for a long long time, since we both left villa bali for greener pastures LOL. she was with poh chuan & yvonne, lerrick and some of their frens.

was in my "trust me, i'm a girl" teeshirt, got this moron at the bar read my teeshirt out loud as i walk pass him =_=? and damn marcus announce that he seldom see girls drinking black russian, usually white russian which is not so strong, which explains why i need that teeshirt disclaimer
-_- . . . and the best thing is, that day the first thing i walk into office, my boss didnt ask why i late, he read out my teeshirt and laugh o.O!?

there was 2 one metre long arowanas in a pond nearby with damn nice landscaping like fake mountain and stream flowing into the pond. poor arowanas, must had been damn irritated. cos hundreds of idiots like amos had been trying to throw coin and make sure the coin stay on top of its head so that their wish comes true -__-" most don't succeed though. if u ever not enough money pay bill around block 13 dempsey road, please feel free to get some coins from the pond, provided you have insurance coverage. i heard arowanas eat monkeys in amazon. those arowanas are probably 1.5metres and more? perhaps this 1metre arowana might juz chew off a few fingers ba.

then i was smoking magdalene HAHA =X

she kept wanting to go pee within the span of 1 long island tea in a zombie glass. once, i told her:

you drink until below the lemon slice, i acc u go lor.

then she start drinking.

eh, under the lemon slice leh, don't smoke me la u.

then she drink some more.

then she got suspicious, turned over and saw me laughing heh heh heh..

i mean, the water level won't be below the lemon unless she finish it what.. heehee.. evil.. learn from wei xiang when he bully me at zouk some time ago LOL.

mag's entry with photos are on the second half of the entry.
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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Done my Best? What Can I Do?

What Can I Do - is the crappiest piece of rubbish to ever come across a person's mind. totally cripples you, and demoralise you.

Done my best - is when you've done all you can in the given time frame, depleted all the resources given to you, be it help from people or physical property, and the clock strucks and announce "the end of examination, pens down" ; that is when you've done your best.

Its your life we're talking about here. the given time frame is 1 LIFETIME. you might not have done your N lvl well, you might not have done your MDIS well, so what? that's all in life?

You know what, those rich asses that we see slacking out there these days, many of them haven much papers. We both know Peter Ng for one. was it bill gates or the creative guy who study halfway go start business and quit school? what ever, anyways, someone quit sch and still got fuking rich.

Look, you're still alive, that means you have not depleted your resources, neither your given time frame to complete the game.

Resources also includes chances. Chances don't come telling you: eh i'm here, take me. neither does it mean chances come then definitely is yours. we studied business, though GPA sux, but we noe what it means by you need to have adequate Strength to Tap on Opportunities when it comes striking. how ready are you to deserve certain opportunities?

You've mentioned financial problem. we both know how weak we are handling our money. especially when you like to juz heck and go ahead at times, eat first then say kinda thing. and the killer for us both, TAXI.

you know what i hate most about you? when we hit an issue, you would run away and don't want to talk about it. cos u assume that we are both too agitated to bother to listen and solve problem. look, its a thing about compromising and also convincing lor. if your opinion is that right, and mine is that wrong, convince me. if we both have a point, compromise.

its insulting to have a good fren running away at times lidat cos it either mean that my dear fren assumes i'm a childish selfish moron who would not compromise or she herself is one.

my dear, we are both turning 20. we hafta face LIFE le. no more running away.

if things are not right, fix it. BEFORE the day you breath your last breathe, you've not tried your best to fight for your own happiness.

but of cos, i must remind you that, sometimes, its not just about obstinately running in one direction and ending yourself in the tip of the horn with no way to go. you have to think of ways and find the next best thing to do, and get yourself out of the fix.

i dunno how much of this post you've understood or misunderstood what i m trying to tell you. i can only say i've tried to help, but probably not my best just yet.

stop saying hurting things like you're alone. that only tells me what ever little things i do will not be appreciated. cos you've void my previous little efforts.

my boss just told me that he is a little bit unhappy with the rate of my progress at picking up the work.

i've tried hard, you and her know what. but i noe well enough, i've not done my best.
cos i've not tried ALL THAT I CAN. i still have another month to the end of the learning period, i know i still can do more to improve the situation. i won't give up.

if i can't even push myself to be good enough to tap on this opportunity, i have no right to ask for more in life. this is such a basic thing. if i give up easily on this, i do not have any right to ask for more things.

i don't want to regret again.

i saw my PSLE results, i saw my o level results, i saw my musical achievement, i saw my poly results transcript, its not pretty. i was given all the time, resources and help that i need, in fact i was so favoured by Heaven tat i was blessed with wonderful people at most times, a nice pay and nice environment for my internship while others struggle with suckers. at that time, i noe something has to be done, i tried, but i noe i never tried the hardest, that's why i only got improvement but not colourful results.

this time i m not going to allow myself for a choice other than the choice of trying my hardest, i am really happy now, to be pushing myself forward.

i want you to be happy too. please don't give up.. if you've done all you can at wherever u did, then you have to start trying other things, if not you have not fuly utilised the resources that is fated to be given to you in this life.

lets work hard together! this post is not just a reply to yours, but a reminder for me, for my determination, as of tomorrow.

i haven tried my hardest the previous month, now i want to. this is a job i want, this is where i wan to go, i shall fully utilise all the time and resources.

i thought long and hard to write this to reply you, this is the 4th draft. so please do me some justice by not reading it with perception thank u. please jiu shi lun shi bit bit and read again if u are agitated now thankx..
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Sunday, February 25, 2007

The Law of Nature...

... says that u work when sun rise, and rest when sun sets.

heh. though i do not exactly rest when the sun sets, but its generally more naturally acceptable since i start work when the sun is up - as compared to days as a senior year marketer or at villa bali lolx.

busy busy, but very satisfied.

about my last rant, that i was not catching up fast enough, the wolf felt that i expect too much of myself =_= probly.

sitting through the various client meetings with the four of them these 2 days is cool lor. i felt more confident about the possibility of hosting the client meetings by myself in near future le haha. cos initially, it seems damn bloody scary la to be hosting client meetings by myself. and the first time sam ask me call a client, i was talking like a fuktard la. nways that lady is nice ^^ end up smsing like fren fren, she's coming on monday, look forward to seeing her and her childhood photos for the photomontage =D

through the first 3 meetings, i had been sitting there quietly, meditating so hard to get myself ninja n invibility skills to camouflage into the background or the parquet floor or something.. but just now during the wolf's client meeting, i did managed to summon some words with the couple =D i wanted to say more things.. but cos its the first time i sit through the wolf's presentation, so i not sure how he planned his sales talk.. don't wan mess up his mental notes.. so i still quite quiet, but got improvement is good! my words all adapted from rueyloon's sales speech in the morning ahahaha~! but he steady lor. short, simple, precise.

wahaha i is busy. busy good busy good. satisfied. ^-^

i noe why i m hell slow.. i noe where the probs lie.
firstly its a industry that i have never ever put any thoughts into, or have any contact from any angle at all la. my sibling's weddings are all unconventional, so i cant use them as a model to understand how normal people works =_=

then is i too paranoid and no confident with myself doing things.

i just hafta sit through with them in client meetings more, and understand the concerns from the service provider's angle and the client's angle, and the solutions; and more understanding of the products; and do up more research of this industry through the singaporebrides.com forum and also the various competitors and the related fields like banquet services from various hotels and venues, bridal services shops and misc stuffs like decorations, thank you gifts and customs kinda things.

thou shalt crack it part by part.

GOAL:

i aim to be able to host a client meeting by myself in 2 weeks time.
*determined pout*

happy happy x)

i wanted to express more of my emotions,
but i dunno how to say except these retarded vocabs:
happy happy, busy good busy good, satisfied.
okies,
i noe the things in these posts
sounds mundane and so retard proof,
but i sound so uber happy about the little things,
like so gong cb..
but cos its me, the usual gong cb,
blurring everywhere;
things that no need do so much, usually i did a lot more than others,
and the things that other cleverer ppl do a lot, i did a lot lesser..
if its ting and elmo they sure can do much better things..
while they do greater things,
i is happy happy happy to be always here happy happy for them,
and happy happy for the little things that i do in my tiny turtle steps x)
its little things lidat tt makes me satisfied n happy le =)

i'm really really very very very happy at this moment in time =D
is that a better way to express it?
i'm sick of using the word happy;
cos i use so many times liao in these posts
but like still not enough to illustrate my happy at this point in time leh
LOL!
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Thursday, February 08, 2007

My First Job

1st march 2007, i is gonna embark on a new new journey wahaha~!

went for the 1st interview yesterday.. well sorta tongue-tied during the interview.. but during dinner is fine lor. haiz. was interviewed by my bosses: ruey loon, sam & george; and ah law helping along heh heh.

2nd interview on thursday to discuss bout prospects heh heh $_$

after that is going to attend a talk with them on nex monday to learn more bout the industry and stuff..

^-^ muz thx lawrence loads loads for helping me to promote and giving helpful hints n cues along the way hahaha~!

actually there was a competitor for the job.. i sorta also noe the gal, and i tot if she's really sure she want the job, i would rather she get it than i get, cos i tink she would contribute more to them than i could.. cos she is more familiar in this industry, and she is a certified cosmoprof grad make up artist, so she can sorta multi-task heh heh. cos she juz quitted her high paying job recently.. so they were thinking if she's interested.. actually the last time she was interested, but she turned it down cos of objections from her beau and parents cos of the size of the salary.. as compared to her actual profession is quite a gap la.

i is lucky, cos i is happy go lucky ahahaha~! cos i m not her age whereby there are commitments like hsehold utilities, her dog and stuff. and i still have the time to ~~waste~~ try out here and there to find something that suits me. and i'm actually ready to commit my whole time on pushing up the sales and pushing out the brand; while she still wants to do her make up assignments, which the appointments might clash with the job at the studio..

so I is lucky to be happy go lucky without much commitment and in the next 6 years my boy would be away, and my bro says I can set a certain number of years to try out what I really want to do. So I can afford ~~screw ups~~ and low pay and high commitment ahahhahaha!

So taDAa~! I tink ultimately, I wanna be a wedding planner or events’ planner kinda job, and I like the zero-based challenge of this job, since its kinda new and not so well organized place ^-^

How how how.. so anticipating.. ahaha. Juz now before the confirmation during dinner time, I keep msging Lawrence the whole day: how how how?!
Den now got answer liao, hired liao, I still how how how? Hahahaha~!

Aiyoz. I is already anticipating with many many ideas to decorate the place ahahaha~! Many many potted plants on the desks and the window sills of the studio and the client meeting area and the well-sun-light retro pantry wahaha~! And hor and hor, make many hand-made decorated cushions on the couch of the client meeting area and the couch in the studio wahaha~! And hor and hor, some nice handmade crystal lampshades~! And table cloth of the pantry table~! And more interesting pieces of the curtain that covers the mess of the working area from the clients while they walk to the client meeting area at the back~!

Hmmm ah law ask me where I wanna put my desk heh heh. Definitely not beside ah law aka wolf ahaha! I was tinking the cosy client meeting area would be nice hahaha! But george will be grouchy if I take up his bed =X then I was tinking nex to the studio’s window, overlooking little India =D then I was tinking about the pantry table~! Super like that part lor.. so retro.. so loads of sunlight, and there’s a circular staircase somewhere outside the window! ^-^ haha but tats all crappy day dream of me myself and i. how can I be sitting all over the place rite. [oh wells u never noe.. probly when I get my way around more familiar liao, I mite be based on the couch in the studio with a laptop leh? Heh heh heh~! ] somehow the work area looks like our biz sch labs =_= 2 rows of macintoshs along the walls, but the diff is that, the boy’s equipments, bites and drinks are clattered along the long tables, between the macintoshs x)

Super super like the place~! Ultra cosy de.

So I’ll be like going to work with this different methods:

1. 359 to pasir ris interchg --- pasir ris mrt to bugis mrt --- walk to selegie bypassing OG
2. 3 to punggol temporary interchg --- punggol mrt to little India --- walk to selegie
3. 89 to sengkang interchg --- sengkang mrt to little India --- walk to selegie
4. 518 to bedok reservoir [jasmine hse there] --- 23 to sim lim --- walk to selegie
Hmmm taking bus 3 sounds good. ^-^

Oh wells. Somehow that will be done, so no worries now ahaha~!

Heard the working hours is quite cute. 12 or 1 pm to 10pm. They still discussing 5 or 6 days week, 1 wk day and 1 wk end off, but if weekend got assignment or client meeting then will hafta chg it to wk day. Sounds fine lor, got enough allowance for me to get drunk at double o on Wednesday or Thursday leh~! Wahaha~! 3 months probation ^-^

Excited excited. Already tot of activities to bond with them at the studio too~! The studio is more like a living room somehow LOL. Btw I noted a bottle of kahlua, a bottle of absolut blue and a bottle of brandy or whisky in the pantry HAHA! I intend to add into the collection with a mahjong table and mahjong set ahahaha~! And a steamboat pot~! Hahahaha!

Awwwwwww excited excited. Btw, in terms of full timers, I is the only girl. But no worries, 2 married for 1 yr guys, 1 going to get married in july guy, and another erm mysterious de ahhaha. I is safe.

Sgt Ho aka Gavin~! Heh heh.. me remember u still got black Russians haben treat me hor? Hohoho~ no worries we have plenty of Thursdays ahead as long as u are not dispatched to tekong to tame monkey again LOL.

Wa freaking excited leh how. LOL.

This Thursday after Strategic Marketing and Integrated Marketing Communication presentations, I’ll rush down to meet amos and his mama’s fren’s son and daughter in law to go check out stuff bout amos studying in Melbourne. After that, my big cat will go take his basic theory test of car car, then I’ll go down to the studio to meet the guys. Will be wearing formal wear the whole day sia.. then I intend to play punk, instead of wearing shirt with my suit, I intend to wear spaghetti with my suit wor. See how lor, probably if I haven die of steaming yet by the time I meet the guys and have dinner with them, I might go down to help amos at the promotion stall at bugis junction..

My poor cat hafta wake at 6am daily and go to work and after that go help his mama at her stall until 10pm wor.. although is for these 2 weeks only but I quite heartache him leh. At least like if alternate days still alright lor, but she wants him to be there every single day, I find it too demanding lor. Not understanding enough sia.

Yesterday actually wanted to go down and help, but cos george return to studio pretty late, so by the time we end the stuff at studio, amos side oso ending le, so no need go help.. then today wanted to put the whole day to help him there, but my sister drop her daughter with my mum cos she having basic theory test today [which she calls fraud when she came back LOL] and my mum is practically struggling with two screaming monsters, so I stay at home to quarantine 1 from the other =_= then tml will hafta wake damn early go sch prepare for presentation, then after that is stay back do presentation slides for thurday’s imc presentation, and to call SAM machine and starhub to find back my money from the wrong billing account to dump it back into my damn internet account to reconnect my internet -_- cos one day my bro was too tired, and he went to SAM machine to pay our net bill – to the wrong billing account; therefore, tml I cant go down to the stall to help either. On Friday, might be going to napfa test with yi ting, so I would be dead tired to bother bout smiling to faceless crowds and promoting to faceless crowds and being frenly with those that bother to come out from the faceless crowd and show their face to me and enquire bout my new yr cookies. So basically, this week cant help much.

Heh heh. Suddenly tot of something, but it only applies to promoting things when I m god damn tired; and u would understand only if u chase after Bleach anime or manga heh heh:
the faceless crowd that I hafta talk to and promote to is the Hollow Grande; while those that comes over to enquire are Hollows. They all suck my tiny blotch of leftover spiritual strength away.

Haven seen ting this week. Freaking miss =/ momo and ah vin too..

Oh ya. This entry is done on the laptop’s msword on Tuesday and uploaded into blog on Wednesday haha

Happy 20th Birthday Damien Kee x)
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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

I Felt Hurt.

god opened my eyes to evil today.

i've never been naive enough to not believe the cliche:
笑里藏刀

people might be smiling at u, but doesnt mean they adore u.

but i've always been naive enough to want to trust.
doubting people hurts.

amos's mum taught me: 伸手不打笑脸人

both phrases have been put to test today.
i hope i've grown this time.

i forgot it soon enough the last time, just months back, when it happen when i was having internship.

i don't like it. though its happening again, it feels not de javu, but a new smarting pain. so stunning that i was crying at the bus-stop talking to bird. but this is what i have to learn to handle in 2 weeks time.

it will be applied through my entire working lifespan.

i felt hurt today. cos i really put in my heart to trust all that was shown and said. i put in my heart to love. people that i set my determination to want to cherish. pain.

but i do like my survivor instinct on auto pilot mode:
painful things are forgotten fast enough.
even if it takes years, it does gets forgotten, soon enough.
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Monday, January 29, 2007

Naughty Kids

cos of my internet being down and won't be up until the next time i have time to go chase after the relevant people to get it up, i m staying over at my boy's tonight to get my monday submissions done.

was doing my work on my laptop on a table specially set up for me by my boy bside his computer table. so we are like sitting side by side like nerds LOL.

he was busy playing warcraft and me doing my project.

he was supposed to be in bed by 12am since he gotta wake at 6am, but end up he played till 2, and we sneaked downstairs to the vending machine in pajamas hahaha. creeped out, making sure that the door is not making noise..

felt like secondary school kids. felt like our first date.

was not supposed to out with him at that time..

it was like 11pm+ after a movie with khryz n her then ass of a boyfriend, we decided to walk home from a bus stop after changi general hospital, cos the bus 17 was too rickety and i was paranoid that it might just fall apart soon. waited for the nex 17 at that bus stop for a while, but we got impatient and adventurous, and decided to walk home.

walked through factory areas near st anthony gals, through block 85 market, through the road along the police station bypassing fengshan pri to my house.. throughout the way was so afraid of getting caught on the way by my brother hahaha. especially when we were passing through 85 market lolx.

so is the same for our first date as a couple the next day, with khryz and that ass, at suntec city.. holding hands sneakily LOL.

the first time my brother realise his existance is like 4months later? and really, as fate has it, we go until clementi lor knn west side leh. we stay east side lor. we were on the way walking to his grandma hse when my brother's car came out from the carpark after checking on one of the coffee shop outlets he was managing lolx. he turn out and called my mum questioning her why m i seen with a ah beng ahahahahha! my mum buay tahan lor. her silly ah gong mao son in law so harmless where got beng LOL. juz happened that he was holding a pool cue bag and he dyed his hair lolx..

juz funny that he is turning 23 in exactly 10 months time, and i m turning 20 in 3 months, and we actually SneakED out to the vending machine downstairs lolx. and he was so tickled by my constant paranoia of getting caught and my reminders to him to move out of possible regions that we might be found if his mum goes to her bedroom window LOL.

enjoy while we are at it x)
my little cookie will grow up very soon..
and have no time for sucha whimsical moment..

probly inspired by what i've read in the new book my boy has gotten me, Love Eternally by Deborah Wrights, hence these 2 posts lolx.

alrights. back to work. got an individual report and a presentation to rush. and straight to school for presentation laters, then slp till nite and rush another individual report, then hand in on tues, then slp till nite then rush another, den hand in on wed, then slp till nite den rush another group one then wake up the nex day n do more then sleep den hand up then meet the princes who made my last 2 years in bedok south a happy happy one, especially my favourite prince bubuzai LOL for badminton, prata, teh tarik and talking cock session.. very very long no catch up le.. like 2 years ba. love them hell loads. they take me as i m n never judged me, always forgiving and helping and receiving me into their bunch anyday x)

anticipations =)

oh ya. muz muz muz mention this before i publish lolx.
was out at thomsom to take photos for entrepreneur presentation tml, and i was afraid of being alone and lost and lonely, my boy is at work, and its a definite no-no to ask any marketers - they would kill me then kill themself if they bother to go out with me on sucha day when the nex day is a heavy deadline LOL. and i called up gavin ho to acc me, no hesitate sia, he juz onZ and acc me there, despite me being bit bit late and lost in directions at thomson =.= though he only reached home aft MOS the nite before n home at 6am, and sent his sis to dance sch before he met me ^^

so touched la. the last time i wanted to get amos xmas prezzie, he was bit sick still acc me out and this time he so garfield so sleepy still acc me T_T

wad hav i done to deserve brothers like kenny and gavin (sim and ho lolx) T.T

ahaha. muz thx johnson for letting me go at 11pm that nite at work despite the disagreeing barnut and barnut for being a softee that nite n didnt insist against johnson(if the rumour was true), and yi ting for bringin me to dbl o that nite and randell for bringin me in with the waive off entrance and queueing and song for bringing randell to me, which ultimately brought me to the timely meeting that gavin noticed me and commented and his fren who was enthusiastic and came to ask me for my number even before he realise what happen ahahhaha! he often get sold lidat. i was tryin to sell him behind his back to stephanie the other day hahahahaha!

conclusion: i is a happy gal. loved. counted my blessings at this untimely timeliness x)
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Saturday, January 27, 2007

The Last Test of Poly Life

the marketing 3rd year students had our last test paper in our 3 years of poly life yesterday.
had two paper ytd actually, but the last one, global marketing, is damn surreal LOL.

there's 10 minutes reading time before the paper start, so about 90% of the students seated quite early, since we tot the test is 2pm instead of 2.30pm.

2.20pm mr paul ng and mr gary lin gave out the papers, n reading time will be till 2.30pm.

everyone flip open first page, the whole hall laughing LOL. half the hall whispers WTF until it dun sound like a whisper.

after the first half an hour, students are allowed to hand up the papers, and those late comers are not allowed in anymore. many people were more than glad to hand up LOL. usually the teacher would flip open and check for any questions missed out, and so they did, and shaked head, and laugh. LOL~!

i left the hall at 3.05pm, i was so god damn surprise to see people like yi ting, ivanna and serene already sitting outside the hall chatting la! LOL. that shows, the paper is really tough.

and the best thing is, everyone laughing about the paper LOL. usually when the paper dun goes well, people would lament and kpkb outside the hall, especially ting =x hahaha i heard she refuse to talk the whole day when she blanked a 20 marks question during strategic marketing paper; but she's with me laughing about the global marketing paper lor! [but she passed the strategic marketing paper anyways, cos many ppl oso blanked that question, so that paper was moderated HAHA. wadz with papers these days man LOL.]

the first word that we see when we open the test paper already all buang lor LOL. ethnocentric polycentric geocentric orientation LOL.

and all the tips given in the revision lecture did not come out =_=
调虎离山计

LOL. damn funny paper la.

but of course, all those stuffs were in the notes, no less; probably its cos there's 2 tests that day, and there was also a report submission on the same day, that's why many not prepared ba. LOL.

but its a sure fukin funny way to end a 3 year's course..
ting's version on this matter

oh ya. the best part is, we just realised that my groupmate faith is not in our class for integrated marketing project 2, after we had submitted our report 2 weeks ago and finishing up the semester in 2 weeks LOL.

cos ytd, i called jane to ask if she's coming to imp tutorial, then she told me both claris and her is not coming. so i called faith, she said she's coming, but she got calculus tutorial at 9am - 11am 0.0 but the almighty computer system would not be so dumb to give her doubled timetable wad. our imp is at 10am..

after the last test of the day, we were sitting together, waiting for bubuzai aka sean to meet me go tea, then faith checked her timetable again, then realise that her class is actually tuesday, which means, she is not in our tutorial group for that subject! O.O

ultimate..

cos for imp, the project quite light, and many of the things could be adapted from global marketing's project, so we didnt meet much to discuss it, but juz do lor. then we never talked much about it de -.- den the tutorials only like 3 or 4 tutorials, of which the teacher on course for one, and yesterday is the last one, so we didnt really notice something amiss. and besides, she often overslept and miss lessons.. cos she stays boonlay, and she usually stays up late late to do things for project and work.

but i guess Mr Philip Siow would be kind enough to allow it ba, after all she DID done the project liao lor lolx.

oh wells.

after all that ruckus, me and bu went to bugis to have dinner, and met with amos; then me sent bu to work at my previous workplace: shunjuu sumiyaki restaurant somewhere near double O. the place used to look gloomy cos robertson quay was having some renovation works and development for this new entertainment area and condo. but now WoW. its so lively, so many new restaurants and chill out places.

visited my manager belinda and chatted with her, she felt that i should go try join SIA since i dun want to further my studies, cos it would be a great experience for me. then my reason for not joining: i dunno how to swim, and i dun wanna die with only a empty coffin. =P

the boss of shunjuu, chen yen, opened a new restaurant at gallery hotel, Satsuma. shunjuu was known not only for its sumiyaki dishes, but also its range of sake and shochu. but now Satsuma is even betta, its specialisation is Sake and Shochu, but there is the kitchen too, with a new menu too ^^ heard from the TV show by Dasmond Koh that it has the widest range of sake and shochu in the area.. that area has like a jap restaurant every few steps u take lor. *shake head*

yumi aka mimi-san was promoted from captain at shunjuu to manager at satsuma ^-^
mimi-san ask me if i wanna go back and work with them, i say as long as not with emily i might consider =x LOL. guess they really need staff now ba, that day when i message chen yen to congrats her for her new shop, she also asked me the same question. haiz we'll see.

then went back to bugis junction to meet amos, walked around, had the parklane wanton mee which is not as nice as the original branch at near prinsep there the building, and wandered to takashimaya cos amos wanna buy a James Patterson book which is not available at kino bugis.. i was grumbling all the way, cos i wanted to go bugis village, and not going to orchard in that kinda weather =.= [k contradicting.] but okie la, amos got me my Love Eternally by Deborah Wright which was not available in kino bugis the last time i went to find, and we had peach yoghurt smoothie for me and rosebud tea for him [o.o]at coffee club, while waiting for his mum.

okie la. loved yesterday loads ^-^
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Surreal Saturday

as i had mentioned in this post and that post ...

went out with a new fren on saturday aftnoon to go ktv at parkway parade.

erm the experience quite surreal.. no one would expect that the girlfren and a nearly become 3rd-party gal bcome so good fren, talkin bout intimate things bout life and go ktv together after chatting in frenster and on phone o.O

k lets not go into the details bout the matter here.

aft the ktv session which ended at 8pm with loads of tears, laughter and saliva, i was at parkway by myself thinking where-to for dinner..

then i called kenny to check out wadz up for his sat nite.
he was at marina square with valentine shopping for some stuff.
[valentine is a guy, his birthday is on 14th feb ttz y his parents call him valentine..]

i was hell broke la, so didnt wanted to go to town area, den kenny say money not a problem~ juz come down la. u eat i pay, juz dun choose too ex ya~ nb he bring me go billybombers still ask me dun choose too ex! LOL!

i was at a lost with the menu lol. in the end, we shared half a chicken n a rib. the serving damn big la. oh n 1 strawberry milkshake.

after dinner, kenny was initiating shisha at marakesh at clarke quay. but valentine being an extreme anti-smoking ambassodor disagreed hahaha. then we bombard him that he never even bother to go n take a look then so extremely disagree, how can. will never learn new things this way man~ heh heh heh.. valentine was more for a drink at brewerkz. i was okie for both ^-^

walked from marina square to clarke quay lor.. !@#$% my toe toe pain =/
but kenny help me carry bag heh heh so still okie =P

went to marakesh first, but the snobbish cb give us a sit right smack in the middle of nowhere with only 2 stools for 3 person lor! then my pride tells me to object -_- kenny oso dun like the seat, so off we go to brewerkz~! walk somemore.........

had 2 jugs of fruity beer $70+ leh.
then we played games of 5ten, card games n stuff. and we chatted a lot a lot. heh.

very surreal combination.. valentine, the known jackass of TPmasscomm for his goodie two shoe, cant settle for imperfect work attitude LOL [not i mean hor, is he ownself admit de hor.] i didnt used to like the idea of this combination, couldnt imagine putting me one jackass with another jackass, thats why me n amos was at his hse drinkin brandy watchin tv for new yrs eve instead of going kenny's house heh heh.

was damn sonG la, play 5 ten with valentine, keep making him drink with lousy reasons LOL. but end up, kenny throw in the towel first, cos he feel very bloated le. then is me, cos i had too full at dinner, though still very sober, but stomach feel very quesy, so went to vomit at the toilet first =P

drank till 2.30am, then we decided to switch the location to simpang bedok, since the guys at brewerkz were waiting to lock the tables and chairs.

on our way outta clarke quay, we made the higHed kenny do stupid poses for photo xD

kenny doing push up in the center of the fountain near brewerkz

kenny to val: Kiss my Ass

kenny pissing into the frog, somewhere near Gotham Penthouse
[angle effect la, there's like at least 20 people around us at that time la LOL]

went simpang bedok and had tissue prata finally after craving for so many weeks LOL. we had another companion at simpang bedok:
a gal nicknamed Kaya from TP japanese culture group, joined us by callin kenny's phone n putting on speaker mode to conference with us while we ate and crapped LOL. i haven met her before but we still crap like we do lor hahaha.

surreal combinations of companions on a saturday man..

oh ya, kenny was damn brotherhood lor, was supposed to be only the billybombers his treat, but end up he pay for everything that nite and ask me to pay him back another time, cos now he has extra cash cos in NS got ns pay n allowance from his parents, and he noes i is quite poor lately LOL. before u say i cheapo, i oso got be nice to him k~ last time i oso got treat him when i can xD
but smaller stuffs.. like a dinner or a jug of beer at dbl o =P

this sat supposed to go clinic at the cannery with him, but last minute recalled that me n amos already promise his gay buddy jeremy to go for his birthday on 13th jan at dbl o, when we went to fei fei's birthday celebration on new yr eve =/

probably ask kenny go oso, but i hang around with him val n steph ba =)
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