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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Done my Best? What Can I Do?

What Can I Do - is the crappiest piece of rubbish to ever come across a person's mind. totally cripples you, and demoralise you.

Done my best - is when you've done all you can in the given time frame, depleted all the resources given to you, be it help from people or physical property, and the clock strucks and announce "the end of examination, pens down" ; that is when you've done your best.

Its your life we're talking about here. the given time frame is 1 LIFETIME. you might not have done your N lvl well, you might not have done your MDIS well, so what? that's all in life?

You know what, those rich asses that we see slacking out there these days, many of them haven much papers. We both know Peter Ng for one. was it bill gates or the creative guy who study halfway go start business and quit school? what ever, anyways, someone quit sch and still got fuking rich.

Look, you're still alive, that means you have not depleted your resources, neither your given time frame to complete the game.

Resources also includes chances. Chances don't come telling you: eh i'm here, take me. neither does it mean chances come then definitely is yours. we studied business, though GPA sux, but we noe what it means by you need to have adequate Strength to Tap on Opportunities when it comes striking. how ready are you to deserve certain opportunities?

You've mentioned financial problem. we both know how weak we are handling our money. especially when you like to juz heck and go ahead at times, eat first then say kinda thing. and the killer for us both, TAXI.

you know what i hate most about you? when we hit an issue, you would run away and don't want to talk about it. cos u assume that we are both too agitated to bother to listen and solve problem. look, its a thing about compromising and also convincing lor. if your opinion is that right, and mine is that wrong, convince me. if we both have a point, compromise.

its insulting to have a good fren running away at times lidat cos it either mean that my dear fren assumes i'm a childish selfish moron who would not compromise or she herself is one.

my dear, we are both turning 20. we hafta face LIFE le. no more running away.

if things are not right, fix it. BEFORE the day you breath your last breathe, you've not tried your best to fight for your own happiness.

but of cos, i must remind you that, sometimes, its not just about obstinately running in one direction and ending yourself in the tip of the horn with no way to go. you have to think of ways and find the next best thing to do, and get yourself out of the fix.

i dunno how much of this post you've understood or misunderstood what i m trying to tell you. i can only say i've tried to help, but probably not my best just yet.

stop saying hurting things like you're alone. that only tells me what ever little things i do will not be appreciated. cos you've void my previous little efforts.

my boss just told me that he is a little bit unhappy with the rate of my progress at picking up the work.

i've tried hard, you and her know what. but i noe well enough, i've not done my best.
cos i've not tried ALL THAT I CAN. i still have another month to the end of the learning period, i know i still can do more to improve the situation. i won't give up.

if i can't even push myself to be good enough to tap on this opportunity, i have no right to ask for more in life. this is such a basic thing. if i give up easily on this, i do not have any right to ask for more things.

i don't want to regret again.

i saw my PSLE results, i saw my o level results, i saw my musical achievement, i saw my poly results transcript, its not pretty. i was given all the time, resources and help that i need, in fact i was so favoured by Heaven tat i was blessed with wonderful people at most times, a nice pay and nice environment for my internship while others struggle with suckers. at that time, i noe something has to be done, i tried, but i noe i never tried the hardest, that's why i only got improvement but not colourful results.

this time i m not going to allow myself for a choice other than the choice of trying my hardest, i am really happy now, to be pushing myself forward.

i want you to be happy too. please don't give up.. if you've done all you can at wherever u did, then you have to start trying other things, if not you have not fuly utilised the resources that is fated to be given to you in this life.

lets work hard together! this post is not just a reply to yours, but a reminder for me, for my determination, as of tomorrow.

i haven tried my hardest the previous month, now i want to. this is a job i want, this is where i wan to go, i shall fully utilise all the time and resources.

i thought long and hard to write this to reply you, this is the 4th draft. so please do me some justice by not reading it with perception thank u. please jiu shi lun shi bit bit and read again if u are agitated now thankx..
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