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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Handicapped.

damn for the past few days, my mouse spoilt.. i felt so handicapped.

u would be surprised of the inconvenience man..

i was trying my best to use my keyboard to navigate.. wow fuk sia. damn fuk up.

i m blocked from entering my own blog due to the threshold i built with my own FingErs.. cos my navigations are to click on the:

and this muz b done with a cursor. damn cant even tab tab tab my way there!!!

thus i was blocked from entering my OWN bLOg to read msgs left in the tagboard. tmd.

so i was fed up, i chg the template muahahahaha~! i was very lucky, i m able to tab tab tab my way thru the blogger site into the template field to chg my skin to the simplest Blogspot skins..

[[**** at this point in time, i juz lost my entire post of this entry itself, aft i type it abt 2 paragraph more than the above, and few pictures more, cos IE error. tmd. luckily i managed to recover this part of the post. from this moment forth, i shall copy the html version of this entry onto a notepad in case this happens again. nb.****]]

this is the blogskin which i used at that time.. man.. all the click-a-bles and links tt u see.. tmd.. i have to tab tab tab my way pass evry single one of them.. so tt i can get to the field or clickable tt i wan..

but folks.. blogspot is not the most un-mouse-handicap-frenly website k..
from my ex-mouse-handicap point of view, i've picked out 3 webbies which are most un-mouse-handicap-frenly.. thou shalt remWAamBer U~!!!

#1: Baidu mp3 search engine
wa tmd.. look at all the clickables!!! omg.. other than the obvious linklink-clickables, the song titles, the singer's name, the lyrics, the etc etc etc etc etc which somehow clickable n leads somewhere.. i muz tab tab tab my way pass them~!!! its totally nuts.. worse than tt time voting for jacqueline on the i-weekly website lolx..

wa nb.. saw tt?! 30 search results k.. not including advertisements, side-links, functions etc etc, juz the search results itself k.. 30 *tabs* song title.. 30 *tabs* singer name.. 30 *tabs* lyrics.. etc etc.. *faintx upon the mere recollection of the experience of tabbing pass these shits..* wadz worse is i cannt go backwards.. meaning if i at the middle of the page, i cant get back up to the search command form.. so i hav to tab tab tab my way aLLLLLLLLL the way down thru the functions, side bar adz, side-links, search results etc etc etc to get to the search command form to type the song title. n if i happen to tab too happily and missed it, ttz it. all over again.
*tab tab tab tab tab tab tab tab tab ...................*

#2. whoa. this is tmd classic case of [[Kiang Tio Ho~ mAI gEi KianG.]]
the winner for this is... *drumroll* *tiAnG* photobucket. _-_zZz..

the forms for submitting pictures is damn kl wan lor. tmd. i finally tab tab tab my way to the browse picture button, then i click enter. then this super gei kiang webbie go submit picture instead. harlo, i haven eben browse leh submit similan.. den not like the highlight thingy is juz at the submit button lor.. i already laboriously tab tab tab my way to the browse button liao lor.. piangz.. haix.

den nvm. u see the one by one already uploaded pics.. knn.. each pic got 3 functional buttons, one pic link, and 3 html forms. in every page, there are 20 pictures.. wa tmd.. i have to tab tab tab my way past all thEEEeeeeEEEeeSSSSSSSSSSSeeeee to get back to the form if i ever tab past the function on the submission form lor! bth..

#3. nb this one actually i dun like the most. but impression not so deep. so aiya, shld be degree of harm caused not deep ttz y. Hotmail.

nb this one super many things for me to tab tab tab pass oso. but wadz worse is often, when i tab tab tab by rite when i tab tio that clickable, it shld have a dotted line or something around it to indicate tat it is my selection ma, but hotmail no have. so i have to look at the status bar to see i tab tio where liao. usually for other sites, i can see easily from the status bar wHeRe is My sTaTuS; but this nehneh de hotmail.. the permalinks shown in the status bar is so ambiguous.. T.T i totally catch no ball from one to another..

look this one, my cursor is pointing to "reply", and the status bar shows gibberish ambiguous language! n wadz best, not a part of this shit shows tt i m at "reply". none of the word looks like reply..

worse than having to distinguish wadeva kuku processes on the taskmanager..

therefore, although i m allowed to tab tab tab my way around, but i juz tab no ball la.. so pretty pissed oso.. haix.

haiyo.. being mouseless is juz a minor handicap lor.. recently i got in contact with this fren from secondary sch who is visually handicap.. she has weak sight. guess wad? i found her through frenster, and she's able to type a full length mail back to me! so being curious.. i asked her how she managed to do that since she even requires a magnifying glass to do homework back then.. i tot she has recovered.. here's wad she replied me:

pardon me asking this.. erm, how do u type and add scripts to ur webpage and read from the computer?
Ohh... I use the window XP magnifier to read when i type on the keyboard. and when it comes to reading things on the screen, i may use my own hand-held magnifier. There is oso a talking software called 'JAWS' which is for the visually handicapped pple... It will read to u whatever is on the screen and what u type... i seldom use it cos i think i still can cope with my magnifier and the xp magnifier as well... haha moreover i dont really understand some of the things JAWS will pronounced. (: The coputer is the same as all sighted person, only thing the vh may use certain specialise software which helps them read out!!! -.-

wow look.. she takes so much trouble to be able to do what i m doing.. n here i m whining about this slight trivial of a mere slight temporary inconvenience.. *guilty*

but hey, i still tink probably all web designers shld go try out this mouse-handicap, so that we can develop webbies which are more user frenly! afterall, keyboard shortcut navigations are more often than not saves much time =D

[[i started this post at 3.38am.. but ended now at 6.07am.. pengZ..

due to distractions which sets in whenever i open another window to collect some info or screen shots..

then i notice something else.. den i click on the clickable which brings me else where..

n MSN messenger played its part too ^^

so.. awww lolx by rite i still have 5 more posts to update, which i already planned in point forms in notepad..

and one butterfly-dance blogskin for Leaf..

haix.. i could continue..

but i muz fulfill my promise to my cookie..

he was me to try to tune back n slp like a normal person o.0

so.. well 6am is an improvement from the 8+ or 9+ or not at all days ya? ^^

thou shalt return shortly.. Aww'B BaK! ]]

[****oso, at this point in time, i suddenly accidentally realise tt.. photobucket photo hosting.. actually the picture when u load mite not come out properly leh. like juz now i lazy to load the pics one by one into this post, so i load them fast fast into the photobucket, then when i load it out here.. the details in the image is goyak wan lor! u see the blogskin pic rite.. the wadeva words in the pic is still pretty clear though small, the same pic which i loaded with photobucket was sibei jialat la! the wordie details are so distorted.. so i mite consider using blogger to host my pics nex time.. the method is damn simple de.. juz load ur pic onto a blog post, den click the edit html, then u copy the tag of ur pic can liaox.. oh tmd. this sux.. takes tmd long time leh.. nvm. quality matters..****]

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Monday, February 20, 2006

Ambitious but Laid back

ah.. haven been posting diligently these couple of days.. cos had been working, and playing game till morn 8am daily =X so end up very exhausted both physically and mentally, thus very laid back.

seeing blogskins by other people at blogskins.com makes me itch to make one by myself; besides, i really need to make one for my shop. =)

not sure about my work schedule this week yet, but if i have a weekday which i do not need to work this wk, i would go to school to fix a nice blogskin for my shop.

the skin would be fully equipped with loads of divisions (1 category of product per division), drop box forms for convenience for searching and many more decorative purpose stuffs.

ambitious aint i? for someone who has yet to design a simple blogskin yet ^^

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Sunday, February 19, 2006

Egg Quiz Answer

This egg quiz is about how you would handle your relationship ^^

The raw egg being how you would handle relationships before marriage, and the cooked egg being how you would handle relationships after marriage.

The significance of the 4 places are:

Pocket - Faithful, one and only
Treetop - High expectation of your partner
In the soil - Leav things to fate
Water - Cant stable down.
=) take the results with a pinch of salt though~ afterall, one type of rice, rares hundred types of people ^^

****i've decided to put this post away to the day which it was created, since i've already kan kai le, and since i no nid it to cover tt two dumb posts le. my baobao is enuf, i dont need to care about other shitty nonsense. juz making myself more fan, n wasting my readers' time nia.****

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Friday, February 17, 2006

Egg Quiz

dear friends:

as i have decided not to give a fuk abt that person anymore, this post will take over the position of the top displayed post. (post dated i.e.)

this is fun, put your answer in the chat box k~ i'll give the answer on sunday =p

you are given 2 eggs: 1 cooked, 1 raw.
you are given 4 places to put the eggs; you may choose to put both eggs at the same place, or separately.
the 4 places are:
pocket
on top of a tree
in the soil
in the water

post your answer on the chat box. i will post the answer this sunday =p

****i've decided to put this post away to the day which it was created, since i've already kan kai le, and since i no nid it to cover tt two dumb posts le. my baobao is enuf, i dont need to care about other shitty nonsense. juz making myself more fan, n wasting my readers' time nia.****

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Lizard on the Ceiling.

fuk. as i had mention in the last post, isnt it queer that lizard run on the floor of my room?

k, as i "wished ", now i have a lizard on the Ceiling of my room.

not that i've ran out of things to post abt.. actually i do seriously have some things to post tonite -.-" but this lizard is really so queer that it deserves an entry. damn.

have u ever seen lizard arching its back, stretched limps with palms and foots sticked to the ceiling, head tilted in the air, with a blasted tail (i mean it. its tail look like split hair ends under magnifying glass..), and one arm off the ceiling? it looks like its hanged onto the ceiling unnaturally -.-"

its not as if i haven met lizards that fell off ceiling before, thus i do not understand why this one refused to drop down, and re-climb -.-"

cos it has been hanging there not moving, and sorta stiffly for quite some time now. i m afraid that it mite drop down while i m sleeping. therefore, i cant slp. fuk.
JOYCE VA A DORMIR~!!!!!!!!

AND IT LOOKS UBER DISGUSTING~!!!!!!!!!!

actually.. this lizard's front arms looks pretty queer.. it looks like its both arms are over-stretched till its so unnaturally thin.. and worse of all, its left arm seems to be without a hand~!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKK~! wtf.. and now worse of all, i cant walk over to my clothes to get my pajamas. -.-" if i wear my work clothes to go to my mama rm to slp she'll be very noisy tml -.-"

damn. if tt lizard is still there tml, i'll use the vacuum cleaner.

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Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Not Oriented.

LOL ~!

while customizing the new blogskin, a lizard came into my room, through the slit beneath the door, crawling on the floor.
-.-" aint lizards supposed to be on the ceiling?

juz as i thought of what amos had said the other day when he saw a lizard came into my room..

u wun be able to slp tonite oso lor, knowing that there is a lizard in ur room lol~
the lizard retreated.

cos i got this super power fan which is blowing in the direction of the door, seated a metre plus behind the door, think the lizard was not oriented to this "force"..

the lizard felt disoriented and threatened by the wind, as much as me feeling disoriented and threatened by its presence in my room. LOL!

so it retreated through the slit beneath the door rapidly. LOL!

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Valentines Day 2006

=D

nothing much la tonite ^^

so as not to keep me waiting, my big cookie rushed over to bugis directly aft work to meet me go take photo and go dinner at Shunjuu..

but due to some unscheduled events happening earlier in the day, i was pretty late so i took cab down to Robertson Quay. My amos ran all the way in from UE square bus-stop to meet me at the mini T-junction btwn UE square and Robertson Quay Hotel.
as it was pretty dim, i thought he looked like he had something round-ish in his hands, as he ran towards me. as he gets nearer, i tot he bought me cotton candy LOL~! cos it looks like he's holding something pink and fluffy on a stick =D
its a bouquet with a bear and 5 sponge roses
i told him i didnt want roses this yr.. cos i did not noe wad to do with the roses the last 2 years LOLx~! so he bought me this bouquet ^^

then we had dinner at Shunjuu with his parents LoLx doubledate.

all my ex-colleagues at Shunjuu was nice to me =)

then we wanted to go to cineleisure to catch a movie, but the show is sold out =/

actually while waiting for his parents to park the car, i wanted to go to the photo card shop to take photo.. but the queue is long.. he dont like =<
=) still managed to get him to pose for this pic to be taken with this black motorola v3, while he removed his eyes from the TV screen of movie previews for a second.. ^^

aft that we went to starbucks at california fitness there.. surprisingly, we met a big bunch of TPmarketers!

at first i only noticed celine, then when i look around, i saw maryanto, edwin, julius and many more! ^^ celine's bday falls on valentines day, so they hang out together =) Happy Birthday Celine ^^

then his mama send me home ^^

cos careless me, forgot to bring the chocz i made for him out, so i juz quickly grab a microwavable, disposal bowl for him n dump all the 20 pieces of almond and raisin flavoured chocz in and rushed him outta the door ^^ not that after the dinner can treat him badly la, cos his mama waiting downstairs ma~ lolx

no pic for the chocz wor.. but i told him to take a pic of one brick of choc so tt i can post here haha dunno if he did =p

the end ^^
btw, i got home at 12am. =)
looking forward to the nex big day: 5th Anniversary, on 10th of August 2006

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Memoirs of Baby Pooh & Co blogskin

=') i gonna chg blogskin le.. but i'll save the exact my-version template, so that i can chg back anitime if i miss it =)

the baby pooh and friends skin is done by miss icy, and my nex skin is oso by her ^^

these are the photos of the 5 hearts' divisions in the baby pooh & co blogskin..

the entry page...
the post page...
the chat box page...
the links page...
the favourite posts page...
the gallery page...
=) actually i really like this skin ^^ juz that i wanna have some changes and some fun new stuffs too.. hope aft i chg away this skin, my soft-toy junkie reader will still come back ya?
*wink to R2D2*
hope evryone will like my nex blogskin, its really sweet and there are many interesting things in it to anticipate oh! [[eg... a link when pointed by cursor would hav hearts floating up =) ]]

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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Valentines Day

ahh.. letz talk abt today first =)

today met up with yin to discuss work. didnt get far, but does have a bit bit progression. cos her valentines day suit with huat kor somehow got spoilt, so we went down to plaza singapura's PureMilk to exchange.

den i proposed to bell jie to meet me to show me all her goods.. but didnt managed to strike a time.. haha cos while i was crapping with alex n meow jie bout alex's display pic, bell jie message me say she va a dormir zZz.. haix. nvm will call her personally later =)

juz now aft huat came to meet yin n me, it was a bit awkward =] so i left, to go tampines find amos. i went straight to tampines mall's ntuc when i reach..

i bought a big slab of Cadbury Old Gold (juz plain dark choc, differ frm pic),
a cadbury milk choc bar (just one bar.. not 3.. ),
1 dozen small boxes of sun-maid raisin (1 dozen small boxes.. not 1..),

n a pack of camel honey roasted almonds (no picture),

to make chocolates for amos ;) i noe.. it sounds dumb.. i buy choc to make choc. but look.. its damn tedious k.. n i added raisins n minced almonds in k~ then i melt it~ then i reshaped it~!

actually i only intended to buy the old gold and make for amos.. cos he likes dark choc. but kenny likes milk choc lolx. kenny is my best bro ^^ anytime i need his help, as long as he can make it, he would definitely help me.. if i m stranded somewhere alone, he wud reach me in 45minutes.. =) and kenny says he'll return my choc favor by buying me
Goldiva Chocs on White Day 14 march lolx~!

hmm so i juz finished making the chocolates =) n kenny chat with me for like an hour plus while i was at it, so bored.. lolx..

cos left over much almonds n some already opened raisins, so i decided to mix them into my microwaved beehoon to act as dietary fibres ^^

*burp*

later we will be going to Shunjuu for Valentine's Day dinner =D
well, we'll hav a double-date =]
with his parents.

haha i dont really mind as long as my amos is fine with it =)
anywayz it would be pretty awkward if its only me and amos, cos i was a ex-staff there =Þ

i look forward to having a photo with amos taken on Vday. cos for the past 3 vdays, we did not take photo..

okie. juz woke amos up at 6am, now i gonna slp le.. ^^
amos was heart ache for me when he heard me call.. cos he say he heartache i so late haven rest.. =} i told him i was bz.. didnt tell him wad i was doing =]

he wun read my blog.. he wun noe ^^ shhh..

happy vday~!

lolx the kpo in me is looking forward to peishan, khryz, rix, stephy and yanting's blog post abt their valentines' day celebration with their other half ^^

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Monday, February 13, 2006

Things that need to be done over this week.

1st week of Holiday, of end of semester 2.2
Date: 13th feb to 19th feb.

Get the partnership agreement confirmed.
Settle at least ONE supplier; hopefully TWO.
Compare prices of all beads wholesalers i can lay my hands on. [[muahahaha]]
Get 10 handmade designs done.
Decide which webhost to use.
Plan out the calender of work progress for Enigma's Jewel Box till end of Feb.
Remind the finance department to deduct my sch fee, and put me back into the sch registration system

**this part of the list is written on 13th Feb 2006**

well they might b more. i mite update again, thus the nid to put the date there..

at this rate all the delays come in, i dont think we can conduct the trial during end of Feb =<
well then it would have to delay until March for the trial; but what rubbish that might come now, i hope it does not affects the push-cart in April. cos we are already very late, cos afford to waste any more time.

i like being busy =)
feeling busy satisfy my Need of Achievement.

excited about meeting yin to do the handmade stuffs later =D excited cos can start work; and cos its a long time since i have time which i can share together with this sister of mine =)

damn i wanna slp now.. but the baby birds and big birds are damn excited chirping outside today. extra chirpy day. fact that my hse is near a farm, a bird sanctuary and swamp doesnt helps much..

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A Kids View on Marriage

LoLx.. i found this joke amongst my junk mails..

What Exactly Is Marriage?

"Marriage is when you get to keep your girl and don't have to give her back to her parents" -Eric, six years old

"When somebody's been dating for a while, the boy might propose to the girl. He says to her, 'I'll take you for a whole life, or at least until we have kids and get divorced, but you got to do one particular thing for me.' Then she says yes, but she's wondering what the thing is and whether it's naughty or not. She can't wait to find out." -Anita, nine years old

How Does a Person Decide Whom to marry? "You flip a nickel, and heads means you stay with him and tails means you try the next one." -Kelly, nine years old

"My mother says to look for a man who is kind....That's what I'll do....I'll find somebody who's kinda tall and handsome." -Carolyn, eight years old

Concerning the Proper Age to Get Married

"Once I'm done with kindergarten, I'm going to find me a wife" -Bert, five years old

How Did Your Mom and Dad Meet?

"They were at a dance party at a friend's house. Then they went for a drive, but their car broke down...It was a good thing, because it gave them a chance to find out about their values." -Lottie, nine years old

"My father was doing some strange chores for my mother. They won't tell me what kind." -Jeremy, eight years old

What Do Most People Do on a Date?

"On the first date, they just tell each other lies, and that usually gets them interested enough to go for a second date." -Martin, ten years old

"Many daters just eat pork chops and french fries and talk about love." -Craig, nine years old

When Is It Okay to Kiss Someone?

"You should never kiss a girl unless you have enough bucks to buy her a ring and her own VCR, 'cause she'll want to have videos of the wedding." -Allan, ten years old

"Never kiss in front of other people. It's a big embarrassing thing if anybody sees you....If nobody sees you, I might be willing to try it with a handsome boy, but just for a few hours." -Kally, nine years old

The Great Debate: Is It Better to Be Single or Married?

"You should ask the people who read Cosmopolitan" -Kirsten, ten years old

"It's better for girls to be single but not for boys. Boys need somebody to clean up after them" -Anita, nine years old

"It gives me a headache to think about that stuff. I'm just a kid. I don't need that kind of trouble." -Will, seven years old

source of joke: ArcaMax Publishing
source of picture: http://www.motivational-posters.info/

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Sunday, February 12, 2006

OMG I WANT THIS SKIN~!!!

omg la.. actually i tot i wan tt raining blogskin.. but now i juz see that the author who did my pooh bear skin, did a Stefanie Sun Yanzi skin aft the pooh bear skin~!!!

k i dl the html codes already.. shall get to work tonite muahahahhahaha~!

hmm mayb i'll ask rix how to make tt jukebox thingy on the blog, so tt i can put some yanzi songs there ^^

here is the link to the preview of tt stefanie sun - a perfect day blogskin:
http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=74769&action=Preview

muahahhaa its Sunday~! i m going blading with my amos at ECP now.. =)

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Saturday, February 11, 2006

My Next Blogskin

isnt this skin sweeeeeeeeeT~? its from the same author who did my current babypooh & co. skin ^^

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i like this pictures..

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Me. Blunt.

the i-weekly fortune teller said something like:

Rabbits this yr muz not be so blunt, muz noe how to "loon" (tolerate) a bit. if not will lose friends and people who really meant to help u.

so my act this morning.. oops. [[details of this story is in that link as well.]]

aiya.. 8 yrs plus de friends le.. though he sometimes very noisy very blunt, but he often meant good for me de lor. no matter what outside people perceive of him, i still regard him as my big brother, my good friend. =)

hope i didnt juz end our friendship.

i can understand that he is very busy with university, Fantasia, teaching several school's orchestras, conducting lessons in his instrument shop, managing a online instrument shop and a online distribution website for a big big chinese instrument company, and squeezing out a little bit more time for his darling and his family. very busy man hor? =(

but, at least, u promise a date, then u muz deliver wad. then no deliver oso no notice no apology, then like not accounting for your act ma.

and the calender of developing the shop is so tight, suppose to start on 13th feb lor. this kinda basic basic agreement things not settle yet how to get work started.. haix.

{{ i juz called his shop. }}

he's not angry juz slightly pissed lolx.. so i'll go down personally later and get tt piece of paper done ^^ but i wanna add a clause in the agreement:

Work must be delivered at agreed date.if no deliver, will Fine. if no deliver and no notice, no apology; i.e. not accountable style, will Fine. all this fines shall be deducted from devidends.

Good friends are those who never give up each other when in times of Doubt, Fear and Anger. 8 years friendship, Cheers =)

(His instrument shop at Wisma Alkaff, opposite Bugis Junction Swenson. Its at the basement, the staircase btwn the Smelly beancurd and the lifts. sells mostly chinese orchestral instruments and conducts instrument lessons.)

lolx damn i look like that fat rabbit.. cos i hike my leg up on the chair or the comp table or the CPU LOLx~!
oh btw, the i-weekly fortune teller also said:
after birthday then can have better fortune in $ wise
lol tat means after my birthday then my business will good la? but hor, it never say is Chinese or English birthday leh LOLx~!
how ar? lolx..

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I am Fighting Alone. or not.

i m pissed.

first i have a partner who MIAs from telephone calls, smses and emails; then now i have one who simply talks alot but does not keep much to the talk.

i may be a bit too much saying lidat. but isnt it the case now?

Evidence:

before new yr, i told him to send me the partnership agreement draft and some other document, he say "after the third day of Chinese New Year i'll send u everything, dont worry."

comes the end of that wk, of that tuesday which he promised to deliver the agreement, i got neither a call nor a msg to notify me or apologise for the delay. no words no nothing.

fine i went msn, i say "Mr Ye."

his msn says: "i m currently idling."

look, if u had known me well enough, i would fully utilize all the vulgarities of like some 6 languages like its free flow, unlimited access.

so i say: "i fukcare u idling, sooner or later u will see this msg anyway."

good. he reply: "hey~ ya?"

papaya or lao ya oso better than this "ya~" ok.

so i say since i already hav such a uncommitable partner once, i do not wish to have a second. i will not hesitate to end this. i rather do it alone no matter how hard it is.

well i got all the heaven and earth promises and words and strategies.

he then drags some more.. till thurs he say will send me before he sleeps. die die oso will send, he promised.

nope. i checked. dont have. ttz like 5am in the morning k, i checked.

after talking to him on the phone around 12+, i sms him to send me by 2.30pm. no sms replying saying that he could not make it or wad. no sms no words no nothing.

what does this means? irresponsible. not accountable.

i cannot afford to work with someone who is so unaccountable for.

so i juz smsed him:

we call off the whole thing la. i'll start the thing small by myself. before chinese new yr u say aft 3rd day of new yr. until now 5am 11th feb u still haven send. ytd say wad die die before u slp will send. den morn i say send by 230pm. now 5am still dun have=. its juz an email already lidat. nex time need u really do impt thing how to trust ur timing. forget it.

i've always believed in not wasting such time - dragging bcos of paisei to turn table~ bcos of wad emo thing~ , and i've really given enough chance and time, 1 month liao. more than sufficient.

thus i decided to fight alone; or not.

i'll fight alone, but i'll have frens who are willing to support me and help me out in many ways ^^

especially my amos =)

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Friday, February 10, 2006

He who Turned Over a New Leaf

After reading my two posts and some shout-outs in the tag board, one of the readers emailed me a story.. cos he was afraid i mite come up with some revenge or something, or get into some trouble =) sweet of him ya? ^^

but i muz do some correction here.. i did not plan a revenge k? ^^ i only wanted to find out the truth, so as to protect myself from further harm =)

anyway here is the story..

There once live a boy..

who dunno what was it that he did
wrong..

the moment he came to this world.

his mother hated him with a passion

his father was a wimp... who only dares to raise his voice at the wife when
he gets drunk

the father was also a compulsive gambler who borrowed money from
loansharks..

the boy had two siblings.

an elder sister and a younger brother.

but the mother restrict the younger brother from gettin near the
boy..

the boy grew up in different environments..

never in the same home for 2 years..

when he was 6, he was fostered out to his aunties, uncles, granny's
place.

he never once lived with his family for 2 yrs successfully..

the boy had an accident when he was 12..

resulting in a 13 cm long scar on the side of his head... a coma which
lasted for 3 days..

and side effects that lasted to this very day..

he started working when he was 13...

every cent he earn he puts in the bank and gave it to his
parents..

in hope that they will treat him better..

but all is in vain as they simply treated him as an ATM..

everyone the boy encounter tells him this. "Whatever your parents did to
you. They do it for
your good"

at age 15.. the boy got mixed up with the wrong side of the law.

he smoke, drank, took pills, fight

after living such a lifestyle for 2 yrs..

he finally woke up when one of his friend was hacked to death..

the boy clear up his act...

he quit smoking.

dump the pills..

and told all his friends that he no longer wants to fight..

his friends told him, "you are kidding. you are a fighter in life..
."

and he simply told them, "not anymore."

at age 19, he left his father house.

rented a room and live his life the way he wanted..

he took solace in music. the internet and the art of professional
wrestling..

he found a group of friends... brothers... and they guide him, help him..

finally at age 23, he knew that he no longer need his family.. cos his
family didn't want him in the
first place..

life was pretty good.. till he receive news that there's a scarring on his
brain...

the doctor couldn't tell him how much longer he have to live.. or will he
suddenly just drop down

and lapse into a coma again... but one thing is for sure.. the boy knows
that he have live life to
the fullest...

who would have thot that this young boy..

Will turn out to be the man he is today?

morale of the story.

you are still young.. if something happens.. it happen. no point being
angry over it..

it's either u forgive and forget.

or seek revenge which i honestly advise u against...

revenge beget revenge..

i asked him, did he blog down this story, he says he cant =]
oh ya, by now u shld noe the narrator = the protagonist k~
so ya.. this is his ans:

i ask: why did u open a blog?

ans:
cos i want a place to call my own. BUT it ended up being not
mine..

i ask: why cant u post this story?

ans:
haha...nope.. unlike u.. i can't voice out all my likes and dislikes in my blog.. i got ppl who look at my blogs.. ppl who i dun wan them to know certain things..

i ask: isnt tt how xiaxue & dawn yang felt as they get more readers?

ans:
yup.. but if ppl dun visit their blog.. no point in having a blog.. a blog is for one to display their feelings.. but xiaxue got flamed for displaying her true self.. truth be told. she is famous..but for all the wrong reasons.. but still i read her blog.. entertaining..

i've always wanted to ask other bloggers what was Their ObjEcTiveS when they started their blog.. cos i m confused haha~! i noe having a blog is to express my true feelings, note down the happy and unhappy happenings.. and oso, having a blog is a way i wan attention from people. but i m confused.. cos shouldnt a online diary be something that is personal? but why should anything that is personal be placed on the world wide web? bsides, there are disclaimers from Blogger saying
"A Public blog appears in your Blogger Profile. If you select "No" we will not
show your blog anywhere on Blogger.com, but it will still be available on the
Internet. "
Blogger users can find this line in Dashboard > Change settings > Add your Blog to our listings?

so.. i m pretty confused =)

from my Using Internet as a Research Tool cross disciplinary subject, i learnt that a website with the PurpOse being PERSONAL, could be websites that hav traits like:

designed by individuals for different reasons
provide personal information
subject may range from whimsical to serious in nature, e.g. may include news of individual's interest or favourite stars to information on certain statistics

[[erm.. i suddenly forgot wad i had sorta mentally planned to write from here onwards.. so i a bit anyhow from here k.. =p ]]

so with these traits being the nature of personal webbie (blog is considered personal webbie), what then is considered ethically socially plus your-own-principle-ly right way of managing ur blog? [[erm y i ask this? sorry sleepy.. mayb u can giv me ans =p]] [[eh seriously i very lost liao dunno wad i crapping.. cos juz now go find my UIR notes ma. den come back liao damn lost. anyways. U know~ u noe wad i talk de la hor? =p probably when i got the sensation i mite come back n complete this post XD]]

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Short Conversation with Rix on Msn

LoLx.. a short conversation with Rix on Msn:

i not stupid too. says:
eh ask u ar

Rix says:
go on

i not stupid too. says:
are my posts too long

i not stupid too. says:=p

Rix says:
nope. in fact i find them theurapatic

i not stupid too. says:
the ur apa tic

i not stupid too. says:
means wad

Rix says:
meaning when a person is full of problems.. reading your blog is like therapy.

Rix says:
feels better after reading your blog.

i not stupid too. says:
got meh got meh

i not stupid too. says:
wa i so humtang bola so heng heng humtang tio ar

i not stupid too. says:
ahahaha

Rix says:
haha... honestly.. at least your blogging is truthfully u.

i not stupid too. says:
=)

Rix says:
u r 19?

i not stupid too. says:
ya

i not stupid too. says:
dun u find the way i write

i not stupid too. says:
machiam writing expository essays

i not stupid too. says:
lolx

i not stupid too. says:
like secondary sch lidat

i not stupid too. says:
adults dun do tt

i not stupid too. says:
lolx

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Thursday, February 09, 2006

Interpretating Things

dont juz laugh k? this joke got meaning de ^^

This is a joke, but I think it is both meaningful and
funny...

It's amazing how we can sometimes all be in the same
place, see or hear the same things, yet interprete differently -- often
according to the perspectives which are pre-determined by the priorities that WE
set for ourselves.

Think about it? :)
Quote from Geraldine.

The Joke:

About a century or two ago, the Pope decided that all the Chinese had to leave Italy.

Naturally there was a big uproar from the Chinese community.

So the Pope made a deal. He would have a religious debate with a member of the Chinese community. If the Chinese win, they could stay. If the Pope wins, the Chinese would leave.

The Chinese realized that they had no other choice. So they picked a middle-aged man named Ah Peh to represent them.

Ah Peh asked for one condition to be added to the debate.

"To make it>more interesting", he said, "neither side would be allowed to talk".

The Pope agreed. The day of the great debate came.

Ah Peh and the Pope sat opposite each other for a full minute. Then the Pope raised his hand and showed three fingers. Ah Peh looked back at him and raised one finger.

The Pope waved his fingers in a circle around his head. Ah Peh pointed to the ground at where he sat.

The Pope pulled out a loaf and a glass of wine. Ah Peh pull out an apple.

The Pope stood up and said: "I give up. This man is too good. The Chinese can stay."

An hour later, the cardinals were all around The Pope asking him what happened.

The Pope said, "first I held up three fingers to represent the holy trinity. He responded by holding up one finger to remind me that there was still one God common to both our religions."

"Then I waved my finger around me to show him that God was all around us. He responded by pointing to the ground and showing that God was also right here with us."

"I pulled out the wine and loaf to show that God absolves all sin. He showed me an apple to remind us of the original sin. He had an answer for everything. What could I do?"

Meanwhile, the Chinese community had crowded around Ah Peh. "What happened?" they asked. "Well, First he indicated to me that all Chinese had 3 days to get out of here. I replied to him f*@k off and not one of us was leaving."

"Then he pointed that this whole city would be cleared of Chinese. I showed him that we are staying right here." "Yes, and then???" asked the crowd. "I don't know", said Ah Peh, "He took out his lunch, and I took out mine!!!"

The End.

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I Hereby Declare: I m DUMB.

time now is 6.03am, date 9th feb 2006.

i juz realise he didnt juz came back to singapore. he came back damn fuking long ago, or probly, didnt even left.

How many times muz u lie to me?

u told me there is gifted stream in jc that only requires one yr course. i believed.

u told me u love me since the first day u noe me; nv changed. i believed.

u told me u were flirting with her to get my attention. i believed.

u told me u learn gu zheng for my sake. i believed.

u told me u r going stockholm for good. wun come back. u said tt when u left last january. i believed.

u said u were mean to me sometimes cos u were not sure if u wan to break me n amos up. i believed.

WHAT ELSE HAVE U LIED TO ME? WHICH OF THE ABOVE ARE TRUE AT ALL? I M JUZ 5 YRS YOUNGER THAN U. I MITE BE DUMB SILLY NAIVE. BUT I M NOT RETARDED.

evidence:

Sunday, November 13, 2005

eh fren.. ur frenster account's like so useless la.. ha. collect dust only.. hehex.. more updates please~ anyhoos.. i hate ur driving! can kill!! >.< but still.. quite exciting la.. hurhur.. study hard for ur final 2 papers! i need u to teach me java!! -.- sianx.. skool's boring.. argh~ tk care bro.. cya arnd soon k.. ;)

yes great. dumb me, took time to read 5 times, before i realise u had been in singapore. u didnt juz come back for holiday juz NOW. no. u mite not even hav left last january. why? even jian ming join the joke with u? join in the fun to make me a fool?

let me tell u, i really did love u for yrs before. great joke? laugh! come on laugh at me! ur objective is achieved. congratulations. now i understand what u taught me of politics in tertiary studies. i see u r masters or at least phD with it. very successful in making me a joke haven u?

****i've decided to put this post away to the day which it was created, since i've already kan kai le. my baobao is enuf, i dont need to care about other shitty nonsense. juz making myself more fan, n wasting my readers' time nia.****

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Relationship Standard Operation Procedures (RSOP).

when handling relationships, i m usually more straight forward. i prefer to juz "chop" and letz not waste more time there pacing back and forth. juz conclude, get it done and over with, get on with life, dun let this drag down the rest of ur daily routines..

so when i noe i m not suitable with him, 7 days tgther, i broke up imediately.
when he gave me the love letter, i imediately tell him there's no chance of development.
when i noe he already declare his interest in me, i imediately ask weixiang to help me convey the msg tt there's no chance of development.
when i noe he doesnt noe how to reject gals n there is a gal who had been waiting for him for 2 yrs, i called him n asked upfront: got chance onot? if not i'll giv up.
(note: different color he or him denotes diff guy. dun wanna mention name.)
but for him i juz dunno how to cut things at the approriate eye of the stem. (direct translation to chinese = jie ku yan)
i tot the date b4 he leavs for stockholm would juz ends our undeveloped but already died relationship, and after tt we can still be frens.
i dunno wad he tinks, but it seems to me, he got thoughts to juz leav me alone n forget abt these yrs he noes me.
while on my end, i find it difficult to accept that he seems to not wan to keep in contact as he does not reply email or msgs in friendster.. the only time he replied is cos he didnt noe tt address is mine. i asked him if that's the case, he denied.. he say he's damn bz..
am i being cruel? aint i suppose to juz let him go.. n juz let him find a new life n ttz it? isnt leaving him alone the most right thingy to do for him?
but i juz cant.. this is the only person, i so tuo ni dai shui. i dunno y. but wad i m definite is.. even if today its not amos by my side, or even if i m alone, we mite not get back to where we had paused and continue. cos we've grown up. all these yrs he haven been by my side, how much of the now me can he accept? and bsides, the feeling is different now..
i was juz tinking abt writing him an email ytd morning.. to ask how he had been.. i was taken by surprise when i log into friendster and saw his updated profile that he is currently in singapore.. i tried dialing his hp.. its on.
u can call me silly. ppl already migrated, if juz came back on a holiday couldnt hav juz reconnected the phone line for tt short period rite? well i dunno.. i juz got a feeling.. he didnt really end all his things here..
i will put this as a post-dated entry, so that it will
always appear on the top of this page, until the end of this month. cos i believe the link i left in my friendster profile will bring u here.
today is 9th Feb 2006, 5.38am.
why.. if cannt be lover then cannt be frens even? this other guy who was after me b4, juz admitted into my school.. we rubbed shoulders in the campus a couple of times now, but none of the times we greeted each other, nor is there any acknowledgement of familiarity with a stare or wad.
initially i wasnt sure if its him, den recently when i met him in the computer lab, i overheard his voice and confirmed its him.
damn i m sinful. i muz had been real bad to them.. hurt them damn badly, that the blue guy, this guy n the migrated guy decides to ignore, dunno and forget me altogether.
Amos Zhou Xu Hui, if ever u ditch me or i ditch u (touch wood), u bloody hell betta greet me when u see me on the street. -.-"

****i've decided to put this post away to the day which it was created, since i've already kan kai le. my baobao is enuf, i dont need to care about other shitty nonsense. juz making myself more fan, n wasting my readers' time nia.****

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Comments?

hello readers~! (basically is leaf n rix n no more le ba? if got others let me noe can? haha)

any comments for my blog? ^^ like what aesthetic or decorative stuffs can i improve to make ur read more enjoyable~

any comments to my posts? are they too long, too alien language, too beat around the bush~ or any nice things to say =p ^^

i hope my long posts are not boring u out haha ^^

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Offline Friends

=) actually i got loads of things to talk about tonite.. loads.. but my mental state not very clear haha bit bit fatigue mode, so shall not do these wonderful issues and happenings unjustice by writing them briefly =D

lolx actually i still got one post abt the wonderful sunday i spent with amos and the wonderful monday evening with amos blading at ECP.. i did that post halfway hahaha
but i shall not do this beautiful post unjustice by writing it briefly..

so tonite i shall talk about my offline friends.. =) fair ya? last post was abt Online Friends hahaha~!

actually often i feel so lonely i thought i dont have friends.

yet often i felt so touched like i have many many friends who love me and willing to go the extra mile for me.

budden often i feel like i m so silly over-rating evryone's gdwill towards me.

budden again, often i feel like i m sucha ingrate to tink this way of ppl who cares for me.

oh wellz, why should i think so much and not fully utilising the time given by fate to us, by enjoying fully the time with my dear friends instead of worrying and thinking and judging so much?

this is the lyrics of one song i really like from Jiang Mei Qi. it actually refers to lovers.. but i tink it can turn a bit n apply to what i mean here..

(dunno y cannt put chinese words here.. so i put on ppt n saved as picture but not too clear leh. u can find the lyrics at the below link la. go click musicparadise link ->female -> jiang mei qi hsiao mei -> the first song =p)
lyrics courtesy of MusicParadise

yea so what i wanna say is: dont waste the time that Fate has allocated for us~!

Example Friendship 1:

this is one classic case ok.

i have this classic ability of remembering things damn long ago, but does not remember things of a certain period of time in my life {choicefully deleted}, and forgetful about the recent things.

so i remember when i was in Kindergarten 1, i gotta noe this gal call Li Ping. she was a shy baby then.. and i was more daring. so we sat together, and we r good frens. she's very taggy to me. i didnt cherish the time when she adores and cherishes me. so when she gets along with other babies and not so close to me, i was then upset.

Example Friendship 2:

Secondary school time. this silly cat is really close to me. when we were in sec 1, she has lots of respect for me i dunno y, she literally listens to me.. well that is not what is impt. what is impt is that when she cherishes me, i cant remember what exactly happened, but some things she do, i could not agree with my own sets of principles. we distance more n more.. when i was upset by another friend really badly, den i remember how gd she was to me yet i didnt treasure. i wanted to give her all the best i can give to make myself a better friend for her again. but things are never the same again.

den we got better.

after "O" & "N" levels, we decided to work tgther. then again, i judged her with my unworthy set of principles of my ways of doing things. cos i was the one who refered her to the job; thus when her work delivered were not the level expected, i keep getting complains n a lot of pressure from the other people around. thus we had another really huge bomb out.

bomb out not equal to quarrel. we juz silent away. ttz how we deal with prob btwn us all these yrs. we noe each other the best, we wun waste time argueing or aggravating the Emo-Bomb.

the bomb juz bomb out n release poison gases by itself, dispersing us further apart.

juz when i tot this fren is gone for good, she appear at my birthday with a hand made photo frame, enclosed a photo of me, her and heidi; superglue stained her hands, her shirt and her long brown hair.

i cry on the spot man. (now as i type this example, my eyes still wells up.. silly cat, will ur eyes well up too when u read this? ='] )

till now, we are not as siamese twins like when we were in sec one, but our sisterhood bond is always there, quietly observing each other's well-being, ready to step out and support each other always.

Example Friendship 3

i love these boys =) if not becos of their generosity and acceptance, i would really hav been lonely from sec 2 to sec 4 in lessons, remedials, physical educations, after school, nite study groups and holidays. =D

it all started bcos of my best brother gavin. i do not remember how i got to know him in the first place. tink it was the first few weeks into sec2, i teased him bout his name or something. den the nex thing i remember is i could not find a team for a project. gavin n hui wei very generously offered me a place =)

then the nex memories are we sits at the row of table nex to the window facing the basketball court =) n i was sitting behind gavin. evryday, evry lesson we chat a lot =p
we talk from the bball court, to the color of his hair under the effect of sunset since we sit rite nex to the window. den we would crack some dumb jokes somehow.. sometimes about Mdm Yasmin~ sometimes abt NCC~ =) aniting under the sun. its juz one happy yr~ its the same yr i started with amos =p but ppl who walks pass the classroom, one of them is chrystal, they say me n gavin look more like we r a couple haha~ wun ever. we noe each other too well.

den came sec 3. we are still in the same class =D
so along came new boys on the block, since they are one yr senior retained students. but gavin noes them all pretty well, since these boys all hang around the sch bball court or bedok community centre often.

so now the group is erm all the chinese guys in class + Me? =)

we had another nonsensical yr~ playing badminton aft sch once a while at bedok sportshall.

den came the end of sec3. gavin n hui wei retain. ='< him ="X

though gavin has gone to another class, he left me a bunch of really nice boys who helped me, took care of me alot alot along the "O" level yr.. its thanks to gavin who introduced me into their circle in the first place =D

in the "O" level yr, i managed to pester yin sean the "autistic" until he becomes my good fren ^^ (erm i still dunno if he treats me as his gd fren =X cos he juz never ever shows his feelings be it wadeva haha)

its really fun then.. no matter what other ppl says, i dont care~ so what if i m different? so wad if i m the only gal in the group? i wasnt the first =p xiao juan was always with kerson and adrian they all that group wad~ ^^

through "O" levels till poly yr 1, i always clinged to the boys.. yin sean, kenny, ming, ben and lizhen.. lunch time~ aft sch pool sessions~ =p mahjong session at ming's hse~ nite cycling based at ming or yin sean's hse~ steam boat with fire-extinguisher by the side at yin sean's hse~ XD

all these yrs, i took these for granted.. sometimes when i throw little tempers here and there, or rely on them for many things.. i never ever thought we would one day be pulled further and further apart by our own commitments and different stages in life =(

however, true frens no matter how long apart, how seldom u meet, even if u haven spoken for few yrs, when u r in need, they'll always appear with a helping hand, and hold u up, not look down on u and kick u further in the wound =)

as a business student, a marketeer, i hav endless surveys to be conducted =p if u mite have noticed, my survey respondents are usually guys. in fact a good 85% lolx.. cos i'll sms all the boys who are in Temasek Engineering School, and their try their best to help me.. even to the extend of coming out in the midst of lesson, sneak some surveys in to ask classmates do, and sneak out with the completed surveys =D

Conclusion:

what i wan to say abt this is that.. we are always together.. i nv nv nv nv nv thought that we would disperse like dandelions.. so when u are allocated by fate to be together, enjoy your time together, make it a memorable one. dont allow the little devil of Regret hit on you later-onZ~

be it u turn into good frens, hi-bye friends or u wont remember the name when u see in clubs or on the streets, make the time spent together a memorable one.

u Cant choose who u want to meet in life, but u Can choose how u wan to spend the time with that person.

Since u have no choice but to spend that Allocated Time from Fate with that person, Cry also pass-time, Laugh also pass-time; mite as well benefit ur heart, reward yourself a hearty laugh?

Though it may sound cliche, and i might not be able to do what i preach above, and below,
Treasure the people by your side; love thy enemy.

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Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Online Acquaintance

The several online activities that i do that will bring me friends are: Gunbound (mpg) , Blogging, and MSN Messenger.
through all these online communities, i've found quite a few friends, some became my confidante, some were helpful in many ways..

through Gunbound, i've got to know Ordy, Iorith, Tamahome, za6go3, alexng80 and many more..

Ordy had been like my sister for a long time.. she taught me all my bunging skills.. last yr i sent her a handmade pearl necklace and she appreciates it ^^

za6go3 aka kitty, though i haven known her for a long time, she treats me like her little sister too. when she came back to Singapore for Chinese New Yr, we had wanted to meet and go Bugis shopping. but so happen its proj deadline wk. so no time to meet =<>

One time, i had a huge row with my big cookie, and i rebeled by staying till late at the LAN shop. and tamahome chat with me and console me.

alexng80 is my gunbound guild master. though i always tease him, he is still very nice to me. me and kitty became his zhugeliang when he got a possible relationship approaching. due to his shyness, he had been shying away haha.. we psycho until he got the motivation to go take up the relationship. but in the end dunno wad happen leh recently he too bz, never update us haha

oh ya~ other than ordy, the rest are singaporeans. so this semester when i had to complete 24 forms each for 2 different subjects' surveys, they helped me do too~! alex asked his frenly neighbouring colleague to help me do~!

**touched.**

through blogging, i got to know a few friends too~! mysticvulcan, jocelyn from the crystal glam, leaf and rix.

mysticvulcan taught me a lot regarding having an online blog shop for hand made crystals accessories. we search the net and shared the various related supplier and shop sites with each other. ^^

jocelyn from thecrystalglam has agreed to help me take a look when my site is done, and give me comments =) when i opened a push-cart in sch for proj, jocelyn came and purchased too! (she is same batch as me, juz streamed into different course in yr 2. but we've nv met before the deal..)

even though the 3 of us are sorta competitors, they were nice to me and helps me in a way or another for my shop.

while reading blinkmummy's blog, i noticed a gal who left a comment in BM's post. so i went to her webbie to take a look. cos we hav similar interest in being super enthusiastic for the Chinese language, and we are same age, we clicked very fast and became frens ^^ our tag boards at each other's blog are flooded with our nicks chatting abt this n tt n giving encouraging words for each other ^^ oh ya, she's Leaf. haha forget to type her name for so long paragraph sia LoLx

while browsing my cousin, Stephanie's blog, i noticed one of her affiliates, Rix. when i went to his blog to take a peek, i notice his enthusiasm when he did a reli nice jukebox there. so i drop a comment for him. then the nex day he came to my blog too, browsed and chatted at the tagboard ^^ and he help me "advertise" at his blog abt my blog, and my interest in setting up a online shop! so nice rite? got 2 posts got me lehx~! =D [[ post 1 post 2]]

well pretty interesting fact here is that this is the second online friend i've made, that is linked to me from Stephanie's contact haha~! the other was Arnon.. he is very funny de lor. i like his xiao bike bike, but now he chg to sport bike like very sweeeeE oso~! tink i got to noe arnon is cos i accidentally added the address into my msn from the forwarded mail from stephy. and then~ we'll been chatting for like 4 yrs now? haha we went out to play pool with my bunch of bros before, and he drove me home with his xiao bike bike at stephy's 21 yr old chalet ^^

well its 2.51am now, really muz slp, tml morn got one last presentation.

so in conclusion, in today's world of hi-tech, where u may be living in the same house, but relied on smses, emails or traditional notes-with-magnet-at-the-fridge, and we save on letters and greeting cards due to e-greetings and so on~ ; and a highly scandalized online environment with cranks, crooks and crackpots getting youths into trouble,

i

m

really, really, really..

touched..

that i've found so many gd frens online =') whom i m not sure what they may felt, but to me, they felt as personal as though we've met and meet up n update each other abt life, daily.

cool isn't it? with so much intangible electronic stuffs tt fill up spaces in human relationships these days; with so many cranks crooks n crackpots roaming around as Etizens, i've found sincere people who does a difference to my life somehow, one way or another, bits and pieces, here n there. =)

though now at this point in time, u who is reading mite reckon me naive and sae:
"nv even see b4 or noe the real name... wadz tt sincere frenship tt u r toking abt man...?"

yea u can impersonal a charactor online, ezly. me n kenny tried before. -.- he acted a sweet jap gal XD prob is how long can u sustain the act? ^^ times tells...
of cos, having these online frens does not discredits my real life frens who take care of me, and went through thick n thin... {very gd e.g. -> yiyin }
i m juz trying to bring up the issue tt, this cold metal _ plastic machine, is a box of miracle... who would hav thought it mite bring ppl frenship, 100s of yrs ago when they invented this machine for calculus purpose?

My dear FrIEnDs, On & oFF line, Thank U.

[[i noe this post's ending is long-winded.. cos i m sleepy.. went blading with amos juz now.. ^^ cos i dont wanna do injustice to this wonderful piece of memory blading with my big cookie, i shall reserve it till when i can devote more brains to write the post =D]]

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Sunday, February 05, 2006

I am a Workaholic.

haha when it comes to sch, i am not so motivated. but when it comes to work, i am such a workaholic haha~!

however, the irony is: i m one of the blurrest worker there, but at the same time, a workaholic who never stops finding things to do; seldom stops for a chat of more than 30 seconds, never go smoking breaks or eat longer than i should.

my colleague ivan describes me as: Stoner.

LoLx.. i called him a Maha-Hebi =p i noe.. its malay + jap. but i like the way it sounds ^^ the most snakie snake. haha cos he noes when to sneak off at work for a chat or a smoke break or a bite somewhere =) its gd in a way. he noes when the customer needs him, but neglected the fact tt: it is not juz the external customers we are serving, we have internal customers of different ranks n departments to ans haha

but he's cool so far. no get scolding or arrow yet. so gd. i wun be able to do that being i-so-kayu.

perhaps its that 30% of perfectionist within me that is steering me haha

but its not a bad thing, isn't it? and i enjoy evry single second of being busy, feeling useful. =) this satisfy my need of achievement =D

sadly, my other workaholic manager is leaving soon. i like to work under him, though most of the people do not, cos keen expects quite a bit of things to be done haha..

well there's no perfect thing that goes with my idea of perfect is there? haha

my idea of a perfect workplace = Villa Bali (nice environment n customers) + Peter (nice and not stingy boss)+ Keen (nice leader) + My Gd Frens (nice people, nice partners =D)

=) letz juz hope that work will be more enjoyable as the place gets bigger, more customers, more colleagues; less politics, less unneccessary emotions, less arguements; LOTS MORE WORK FOR ME TO DO~! ^^

i really like this place.. hope i dont hafta leav here.. not soon? =) but there's no banquet that doesnt end; but who cares now? till then...

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Gunbound

click on picture for related blog entry: Irony 4th Jan 06

these days playing Gunbound, to me, is not so much about up-ranking liao.

i log into gunbound nearly evryday, unless i m rushing school work. but i found the objective of logging into gunbound different already.

last time i log into gunbound cos i want to play, want to uprank =)

now i log into Gunbound cos:

Its one of the things i can do best (though not the best in the community of GB players.)
Meet my online frens and joke and talk cock. no stress, no burden; juz talk cock n play. i've built a friendship with Ordy (KL), za6go3 (kitty from singapore), alexng80 (alex from singapore), 2un1qu3 (alaska) and more and more and more.. =) Gunbound is the only media i can stay connected with these friends ^^
Play, Feel, Improve, Get Praised & Feel like a Pro. ^^ satisfy my need of ego defence (a much used phrase in proj reports..) LoLx
well.. though the objectives chg from my initial objectives of playing n upranking, i still loves the game. haha i am easily contented ain't i ? simple game, little change, specializing in adium root bunge =)
pssst !
cos my amos felt that its always me engrossed in GB or he engrossed in quite a few other OMPG (online multi-player games), he is buying me a pair of inline-skates, so that we can have some quality time together on Sundays at ECP.
haha wad if its the monsoon season? XD we'll see then.. no storm can deter us to be together? ^^

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Thursday, February 02, 2006

Some Changes to my Blog

oh wells.. did some changes to my blog. some update at the profile part to make it look neater.. due to stomach cramps + aches so did not have enuf brains or da patience to take down the before/after screen shots..

and i decided to take away the division for the virtual pig and make it into the the archives page where i put the url links of the entries that i like, from my blog and other ppl's blog..

and i added a visit counter at the profile division.. haix. guess it mite remain quite stagnant.

Kicking about @ 2:10 AM
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Might Change Template Soon

mite chg template soon.. cos i found my text a bit too small for reading the entries...

Kicking about @ 1:52 AM
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Msn is Down.

lolx msn is down, my mood is down too.

bo bian, simply cant get it to work no matter how many times i tried, so now i reinstall+upgrade the software and see wad happens ba.

Kicking about @ 12:01 AM
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Wednesday, February 01, 2006

An Unusually Bad Day

oh, how bad is this unusually bad day? bad right from the moment i open my eyes today till NOW. its a Long Day. so be prepared.. For an entrY-ful of This Unusually Bad Day.

Evidence of a Bad Day 1:

first thing i woke up, i read this unusually unfrenly msg which is no where near uncouth but seriously ungentlemanly.

for the reader's convenience, i shall post the head and tail of this whole thing. i.e. the first msg i sent out which gets me these msgs in return, till the end where i received comforting words from elizabeth.

*note: these are the exact smses. dont believe? come check my hp. dun take too long though, hp not enuf memory.*

Me (sent to bird and leader) : Yo paisei so late sms hope no wake u.. If u wake early tml can pls email me RM report? Cos i tink the recommendations part will be out for the question on our proj. Gimme a sms if u got send me k? Thanks loads!

cos after i read the test format from the online learning portal, i realise that there will be a question that is related to our proj. which i tot the question mite be derived from the recommendations part of our proj.

leader : Are u mad or wad? e prj hand in le den you say e recommendations out of pt? dun you tink is too late?

wtf.. i got a new item to my hate list now: ppl who do not read text and instructions carefully. or rather, read with their minds and eyes open.

Me : Excuse me, did u read the test format? It says there'll be a question about proj, WHICH I TINK THEY MITE ASK ABT THE PART ON RECOMMENDATIONS THANK U.

u cant blame me for my hostile reply can ya? early in the morning getting a fright cos my mama put my hp(aka alarm clock) outside the room so that wun wake the baby. n i was actually supposed to wake at 8am for a test, which, if i screwed, i'll get semester 4.1.

and outta the blue got scolded mad??

leader: If you wan it for e test den take it.. I send liao.. dun mention out of pt.. n who is e one who say wanna do swee swee for RM

WTF!!! i was the one who said wanna do RM report nicely yes, and i did tried. n u guys were the ones who said it look weird and whatever fuk. great. so elizabeth decides that we redistribute the jobs and i only nidta do one other part. eh frankly la, put ya head in the bottom of ya coconut heart lor, other than some vocabs nidta chg, the rest of those concepts and all i did nicely properly and really ok de lor. u all gave the "nod" before for those concepts also lor.

since my memory had been failing me, i called bird and ask for her justifications.

i was crying until damn jialat lor. cos at the same time my mama come pick a fight for apparently very fuk reason.

bird tt js reli very fuk lor. {then i told her the contents of the msgs.}

bird says: wei dun cry, dun worry i noe u got put effort, i mark u all same marks de.. dun worry, left last proj only after tt u dun hafta see them le, dun get so upset. we all noe he talk is lidat blunt de ma. dun cry la.

k i felt much better aft ur words of assurance.. thank birdie.. same like u, i need lotsa reassurance.. if u had noticed.. i asked for ur opinions in the proj very often..

Evidence of a Bad Day 2:

wtf.. as mentioned juz now, at this point in time, my mama come and pick a fight outta no rhyme or reason too. very gd coordination of timing ya? -.-

apparently, she tot i m awake already and wanna pour her "bitter water" out to me. but obviously, someone who is sick, having menses, pretty tired, and will be having test later, does not have the mood to comply.

so i say: i. want. sleep.

den comes the roar of things like.. so ba bai la, so qian jin la, so attitude la, everyting muz go ur way la, n loads more distorted things obviously. n of cos there are genuine complains like i nidta pack up some stuff.

cos i slp in my mama's room.

so, i took my pillow and my bobo and banged her rm's door den bang my rooms door, den dump all her neatly folded clothes which happen to be on my room's sofa onto the floor, rite behind my door. and locked the door to prevent any further disturbing acts. den i ringed my big cookie to complain. but sadly, he was at morning parade.. awww.. den i ringed birdie. n found my solace. hahax..

well after a while i decided to go back to my bed in my mama's room to slp. cos dun find a point why i shld torture myself for her rubbish.

Evidence of a Bad Day 3:

well. i went to the doctor cos i aint too well right in the first place, and i do not think i can do properly for my 1 hr 20 mcq plus 2 qns paper.

being slightly overshot the queue counter when i arrived, the nurse was really kind to say i can go in nex turn.

so nex when the doctor pressed MY queue number #15, i stood up, to find one hen n two chicks excitedly stuffing themselves into the doctor's room.

great. so i asked the nurse:

Me: hi i'm supposed to be #15 rite? my name is tan * *. but someone went in lehx..
Nurse: oh. den u go in nex turn lor.
=.=

so i waited for 25 minutes at least. okie, the 2 chicks came out one by one. fine. finally the hen came out. me seeing the situation being another middle-age man n a old lady is abt to buge their way in, i stood by the door of the doctor's room.

at this point in time, #16 an indian woman stood up and give me a super fuk face:
u wad number, i number 16 leh.

i say: i. m. #15. this woman cut my queue.

-.- damn still not fast enough. an old man shuffed his way pass me n right into the doctor's room.

holy fuk. i totally blurred diao.

den the indian woman stared at me n gesture gesture in a sibei dulan manner y i let the man in.

look, i did not. he shuffed his ass rite into the room. being gracious and civilize, n most imptly, sick, i was not in time to retaliate.

great. at this point in time, this round body, round head, round hairstyled woman with many ear-studs, which obviously is a Lau-Lian, starts to make her speech, and thank to her kpo-ness, she incurred my wrath, which helped me vent off a bit of my fed-up-ness at that point in time.

LauLian: aiya why u let him in~ we at the back of the queue bo bian ma, u at the front of the queue u let him cut in den we behind muz wait longer somemore~

Me: he old man, he shuffed his way in, there's nothing i can do right..

LauLian: AIYA~ Here clinic where got wad old man young man wan.. u in queue blah blah blah.. {not heard. cos i retaliated}

Me: So u asking me to push him aside la?

LauLian: Not ask u push him la blah blah blah.. {again, not heard cos i retaliated.}

Me: Ya So CleVer. Right in the first place, Thanks to YOUR FRIEND who cut MY QUEUE and STEPPED ON MY LEG and DID NOT SAY SORRY!

great. that shut her up. and my prowess was shown to the rest at the clinic, so they shut up too.

the friends' thingy is lidat de: the family of three who cut my queue in the first place knows this woman cos they were chatting bout work while queueing. when i said my last statement, they happened to juz left the clinic's door and walking to their big big car. -.-"

man.. i shld copy this part of the post and send to overheard in singapore or ugly singaporeans.. think mite be accepted sia..

it is a bad experience to sit at the clinic and wait for like an hour, but excuse me, i sat there for an hour too. =] i endured that foul smell and long wait too. like wad makes u tink u can have the special privilege to vent ur anger on me? and excuse me, it was an old man who cut my queue. though it does not mean old man can cut queue,

but heLLO~ Do U unDerStanD thE WORDS coMinG OuTTa Ma MouTH??

an old man.

u wan me to push him aside or drag him out? he pushed pass me okie? haix.

Evidence of a Bad Day 4:

Msn messenger is down.

Conclusion at the End of an Unusually Bad Day:

this day muz had been a joke. cos my mood when "reminising" on today's event is quite a

Haha-mood..

well, isnt it interesting and fun how some many not-happy events can occur on a same day?

haha like how often can u be so lucky to meet so many unhappy things in a day rite? so drama sia lolx..

and then, if all these jokester stuff never happen today, den i wun hav much to blog abt todae again rite?

like many of my friends who hav thick layer of leafS blanket over their blogs since when, erm like probly last autumn ya?

so.. thank. for these interesting events today to blog abt. but i prefer more happy ones can? dun so melodrama la. sibei sian lor.

Kicking about @ 11:45 PM
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