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Thursday, February 09, 2006

Offline Friends

=) actually i got loads of things to talk about tonite.. loads.. but my mental state not very clear haha bit bit fatigue mode, so shall not do these wonderful issues and happenings unjustice by writing them briefly =D

lolx actually i still got one post abt the wonderful sunday i spent with amos and the wonderful monday evening with amos blading at ECP.. i did that post halfway hahaha
but i shall not do this beautiful post unjustice by writing it briefly..

so tonite i shall talk about my offline friends.. =) fair ya? last post was abt Online Friends hahaha~!

actually often i feel so lonely i thought i dont have friends.

yet often i felt so touched like i have many many friends who love me and willing to go the extra mile for me.

budden often i feel like i m so silly over-rating evryone's gdwill towards me.

budden again, often i feel like i m sucha ingrate to tink this way of ppl who cares for me.

oh wellz, why should i think so much and not fully utilising the time given by fate to us, by enjoying fully the time with my dear friends instead of worrying and thinking and judging so much?

this is the lyrics of one song i really like from Jiang Mei Qi. it actually refers to lovers.. but i tink it can turn a bit n apply to what i mean here..

(dunno y cannt put chinese words here.. so i put on ppt n saved as picture but not too clear leh. u can find the lyrics at the below link la. go click musicparadise link ->female -> jiang mei qi hsiao mei -> the first song =p)
lyrics courtesy of MusicParadise

yea so what i wanna say is: dont waste the time that Fate has allocated for us~!

Example Friendship 1:

this is one classic case ok.

i have this classic ability of remembering things damn long ago, but does not remember things of a certain period of time in my life {choicefully deleted}, and forgetful about the recent things.

so i remember when i was in Kindergarten 1, i gotta noe this gal call Li Ping. she was a shy baby then.. and i was more daring. so we sat together, and we r good frens. she's very taggy to me. i didnt cherish the time when she adores and cherishes me. so when she gets along with other babies and not so close to me, i was then upset.

Example Friendship 2:

Secondary school time. this silly cat is really close to me. when we were in sec 1, she has lots of respect for me i dunno y, she literally listens to me.. well that is not what is impt. what is impt is that when she cherishes me, i cant remember what exactly happened, but some things she do, i could not agree with my own sets of principles. we distance more n more.. when i was upset by another friend really badly, den i remember how gd she was to me yet i didnt treasure. i wanted to give her all the best i can give to make myself a better friend for her again. but things are never the same again.

den we got better.

after "O" & "N" levels, we decided to work tgther. then again, i judged her with my unworthy set of principles of my ways of doing things. cos i was the one who refered her to the job; thus when her work delivered were not the level expected, i keep getting complains n a lot of pressure from the other people around. thus we had another really huge bomb out.

bomb out not equal to quarrel. we juz silent away. ttz how we deal with prob btwn us all these yrs. we noe each other the best, we wun waste time argueing or aggravating the Emo-Bomb.

the bomb juz bomb out n release poison gases by itself, dispersing us further apart.

juz when i tot this fren is gone for good, she appear at my birthday with a hand made photo frame, enclosed a photo of me, her and heidi; superglue stained her hands, her shirt and her long brown hair.

i cry on the spot man. (now as i type this example, my eyes still wells up.. silly cat, will ur eyes well up too when u read this? ='] )

till now, we are not as siamese twins like when we were in sec one, but our sisterhood bond is always there, quietly observing each other's well-being, ready to step out and support each other always.

Example Friendship 3

i love these boys =) if not becos of their generosity and acceptance, i would really hav been lonely from sec 2 to sec 4 in lessons, remedials, physical educations, after school, nite study groups and holidays. =D

it all started bcos of my best brother gavin. i do not remember how i got to know him in the first place. tink it was the first few weeks into sec2, i teased him bout his name or something. den the nex thing i remember is i could not find a team for a project. gavin n hui wei very generously offered me a place =)

then the nex memories are we sits at the row of table nex to the window facing the basketball court =) n i was sitting behind gavin. evryday, evry lesson we chat a lot =p
we talk from the bball court, to the color of his hair under the effect of sunset since we sit rite nex to the window. den we would crack some dumb jokes somehow.. sometimes about Mdm Yasmin~ sometimes abt NCC~ =) aniting under the sun. its juz one happy yr~ its the same yr i started with amos =p but ppl who walks pass the classroom, one of them is chrystal, they say me n gavin look more like we r a couple haha~ wun ever. we noe each other too well.

den came sec 3. we are still in the same class =D
so along came new boys on the block, since they are one yr senior retained students. but gavin noes them all pretty well, since these boys all hang around the sch bball court or bedok community centre often.

so now the group is erm all the chinese guys in class + Me? =)

we had another nonsensical yr~ playing badminton aft sch once a while at bedok sportshall.

den came the end of sec3. gavin n hui wei retain. ='< him ="X

though gavin has gone to another class, he left me a bunch of really nice boys who helped me, took care of me alot alot along the "O" level yr.. its thanks to gavin who introduced me into their circle in the first place =D

in the "O" level yr, i managed to pester yin sean the "autistic" until he becomes my good fren ^^ (erm i still dunno if he treats me as his gd fren =X cos he juz never ever shows his feelings be it wadeva haha)

its really fun then.. no matter what other ppl says, i dont care~ so what if i m different? so wad if i m the only gal in the group? i wasnt the first =p xiao juan was always with kerson and adrian they all that group wad~ ^^

through "O" levels till poly yr 1, i always clinged to the boys.. yin sean, kenny, ming, ben and lizhen.. lunch time~ aft sch pool sessions~ =p mahjong session at ming's hse~ nite cycling based at ming or yin sean's hse~ steam boat with fire-extinguisher by the side at yin sean's hse~ XD

all these yrs, i took these for granted.. sometimes when i throw little tempers here and there, or rely on them for many things.. i never ever thought we would one day be pulled further and further apart by our own commitments and different stages in life =(

however, true frens no matter how long apart, how seldom u meet, even if u haven spoken for few yrs, when u r in need, they'll always appear with a helping hand, and hold u up, not look down on u and kick u further in the wound =)

as a business student, a marketeer, i hav endless surveys to be conducted =p if u mite have noticed, my survey respondents are usually guys. in fact a good 85% lolx.. cos i'll sms all the boys who are in Temasek Engineering School, and their try their best to help me.. even to the extend of coming out in the midst of lesson, sneak some surveys in to ask classmates do, and sneak out with the completed surveys =D

Conclusion:

what i wan to say abt this is that.. we are always together.. i nv nv nv nv nv thought that we would disperse like dandelions.. so when u are allocated by fate to be together, enjoy your time together, make it a memorable one. dont allow the little devil of Regret hit on you later-onZ~

be it u turn into good frens, hi-bye friends or u wont remember the name when u see in clubs or on the streets, make the time spent together a memorable one.

u Cant choose who u want to meet in life, but u Can choose how u wan to spend the time with that person.

Since u have no choice but to spend that Allocated Time from Fate with that person, Cry also pass-time, Laugh also pass-time; mite as well benefit ur heart, reward yourself a hearty laugh?

Though it may sound cliche, and i might not be able to do what i preach above, and below,
Treasure the people by your side; love thy enemy.

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