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Monday, December 11, 2006

Full - Time Student

since the second semester of poly yr one, i've always been working part time and studying..
quite screwed. cos i is ill disciplined.

amos wanted me to quit villa bali after my internship ends, so that i can concentrate on my final semester of studies.. i tot so too.. but end up i quitted the place becos his mother's new shop wants me to go over and help.

the shop is opening on december 12th.

i quitted today.

Full - Time Student now.

damn screwed for the past 2 and a half yrs, barely scrape through everything.. borderline passes.. its plain ass and idiotic lor.. cos i noe i can definitely do better if i concentrate fully on it.
at least straight B lor.. but i juz got carried away and half done here half done there..

if i had been successful in my part time jobs like li zhen earning 40k a new year and buang my studies still ok, but end up i never really that pro at work oso leh?

amos says, left one semester, late but not never ma. as long as i change my attitude and score this semester, next time employer see liao oso will understand i changed my attitude and willing to work hard can make it de..

what really touches me is that, my boy says:

baby dun worry bout phone bill, net bill and ezlink top-ups. we are going through these 3 months together. i'll work hard together with you.

i need to get back onto the properly disciplined track i got off 9 yrs back. had it been the me 9 yrs back, i would not be worried bout money for this semester now or studies, cos i would hav been consistant enough for my studies, and what i had earned the last 3 mths would definitely be tiding me through.

but somehow, the now me, screwed everything up, and drags my boy along.

final 3 months in temasek poly, as a student, as a child. 3 months later, i'm left to sail on my own.
i would wish that at least i have my boy by my side to coo me when i m afraid and lost, but the tentative plan is that he would be leaving next yr end for australia..

i really cant see any light or any positive way or results out of this semester.. and beyond.
bless me the strength to work all that i should; and courage to accept all that should come.
Labels: My Boy, My Contradiction, My Work

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