Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Koh Yi Teng
qing ai de~ wahaha.
i dun reply u buay kam wan ar nb. i fukin up to my neck this wk la, bz getting emo, getting sick, getting fuk for nothing, and many things haiz.
i tell u ar. how u scold me angry me bite me i oso wun leave. cos i is ur gcb.
i noe i very irritating always late, i oso noe recently u really very up&down. if its juz down u can handle it, cos its not up not down ttz y u sibei gao weh.
that day somewhat i dunno is too dark or u too overwhelm by ur own emo, i was juz tryin to think of an alternative way, den since in the first place u ask me to go buy by myself then i cant think of any alternative le, so i juz stand up go buy la! wtf den u go assume i attitude u. i dun really care wad another person mite have assumed, but u and momo of all ppl, i wud care every little thing u all think of me. i already wasnt feeling too well that day, and i wasnt feeling comfortable in that "3some" company, cos i was damn extra since we met, cant participate in the talk at all. i was already quesy on my part. i juz keep quiet oso cannot?
n wad pls learn to take no as ans. knn i m not the kinda faKe-er goodie two shoe angel that would be able to hide emotions and disappointment away from the face lor. when i m disappointed i cannot even briefly show on my face for a split second or minute? dun juz scrutinize ppl lor.
n thx ar, the lunch thing. u r the one who conclude my calculation sux if we are to go beach road buy shoe. so i say ok, then i see i go elsewhere buy, if can make it for lunch then i come find u. fuk la aft that jasmin call and say she wan accompany me go tampines buy then we juz discuss den i go bath n so on la. when u call i bathing lor.
can i be bhb n think this way? cos if its me i guess it mite be this scenario:
being emo lately --- therefore needs friends' concern --- fren say mayb want come meet --- machiam see a light --- then fren never come --- disappointed --- link link to fren's usual fuk up action --- become even more upset.
one thing glad one thing sad about the blogging thing.
glad is that last time u all juz assume assume n get angry upset n burst all on ur own side but never brought up the details to him, but this time to spare the awkwardness u juz blog out all the details to let me noe.
sad is that i take u as someone that u call me gong cb ask me where is my brain, i still smile at u with my whole heart cos i feel that its u who is sincerely concern of me, and someone whom we can shed mask n pretence words together. but u actually cant voice out ur unhappiness with me and settle by ourselves, still muz blog. wtf is that action suppose to suggest? to spare the awkwardness or to tell the world of how fuk up a fren u hav?
whatever i've juz said, like u've said if ppl scold u vulgarity long enough u wud oso retort back in vulgarity; u've expressed ur unhappiness, surely i have the right to express wad i feel unjust.
at the end of the day, i would juz forget wad u've typed there, cos i feel its juz that u are upset and needs someone to talk to, but at that point in time, there's only the blog.
and as always, wadever said wadever done, i wun give up i wun walk off. cos i m ur gcb.so shut the fuk up like machiam we are at war. i dun even fuking noe that u misunderstood n grudging bout that day lor! and i was fuking over the moon when i was having dinner and u call me to go kbox n even though i cant go, i was damn excited that u tot of me lor! n fuking hell when i reach home, the first blog i always open is ur blog n fuking hell i see u grudging like fuk n its like all the way so like ok ok den suddenly explode like atomic bomb! n i already felt the impact from that sms that nite when i reach home lor thx very much dun hav to go announce how fuk up i m lor.
i was so fukin chui so fuking pain n crying to jasmin from 4am till 6am after i read that post lor. [to prevent another potential misunderstanding: meg, aft u slp le i rang up jas again] cos at work i met fukin fake-er that already really shock me cos i never expected anything lidat could be real outside television.. and its juz half an hour before i read ur post that i got that news i really very chui already lor.. then when i read the entry my first instinct: wtf no man.. this gotta be joking.. someone that i hold this close to heart cant be fake to me oso.. cant be she hate me so much and still ask me go kbox juz now..
i'm gonna try harder, but meanwhile this blogging thing i'll end it as it is now and fukin forget bout it. cos i always makes a lot of noise, but i still love u.
gimme some time, i really cant cope with these of my own le.. i really want to be by u n make hold u up at such a time, but i really cant afford to now..
n hor FUCK YOU. if is not happy certain things of each other then speak up le, would be over defensive until give up on the friendship kinda person is definitely not worth a shit lor. i m fukin expensive k. remember the xiao zhu zhu story? u throw me how far, I'LL bE bacK. wahaha CCB dun u fukin think of ditching me.
btw, the line that suggest that every tom dick harry is invited including this moron, is hurting. cos i always ask u cos i really want u to be there, cos i really think u be there i'll be really happy, not becos to add up the numbers to the-more-the-merrier.
in case u think i find u not impt that y i cant be bothered to take out time to talk to u, i juz give up the precious chance to chat with my boy to type this post whole heartedly to u. i haven been in contact with my boy the whole day cos i left my phone at home, and haven chatted properly since the last time i met him on thursday.
i fuking hate u leh. cos i juz unable to hate u more than a minute. cb. sunday come k. i got fukin funny new findings to share with u LOL.Labels: My Khaki
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