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Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Splurge

its the time of the month again. no, not the time for laurier's participation haha.. its time to get pay ^^

this month i'm eyeing a couple of stuffs:
shorts
skirt
wedges [as in the shoe, not potato wedges]
mascara
=P
well usually i would tink tink about getting wad n wad, but most times, by the end of the month, probably i've only gotten 1 or non of the items lolx..
couple of pics from stephy & val's blog to give an idea of wad i wanna get lolx..
Review for this mascara

val wanna sell her this skirt to me, cos she only wear it once, n found it not very fitting =]

haha den i like this shorts from stephanie's blog.. oso happen to be army print de =]

generally, i would like to collect more shorts ^^ like more casual more relax =p

the pants is from val's bog.. basically i wanna get pants lidat =) we'll see wad happens again ba ^^

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Monday, May 29, 2006

Feeling Random

feeling at the moment = random, nothing in particular

=)

feel like changing skin, so changed. taDa~!

had been wanting to add a heineken pic into my blogskin since long ago.. in fact i've already did the layout n the pics for a heineken blogskin.. juz tt i feel more like havin a plain plain layout now x)

dun ask me wad has the words got to do with heineken..
cos.. there's no link.. its juz tt i feel that way now and like the colours of the heineken design, so put together haha =P

hmmm.. about the wkend..

actually i tot i remember i got a lot of things to talk about.. haha nvm.. my mind a bit stone now.. not feeling too well.

saturday..

amos's mum bought 2 piece of clothings for me from his aunt's new shop 2 wks ago.. but i haven had time since then to go down to tanjong pagar to try them personally.. his aunt told me to go down before end of the month cos they have to stock take..

so i woke up and rush down meet amos go to international plaza at tanjong pagar there.. den went to the shop n try the clothes..

his mama chose a beige baby doll top with lacy details and a mini balloon[or tulip or lantern] skirt with a chain of charms for me.. =) but the top is too big, and the bottom is too trendy haha..
lucky i went down to try.. i was having half a mind to ask amos to help me collect n i'll juz wear them since its his mama's gift to me ^^

while i was trying that two pieces, amos and his aunt kept bringing new pieces for me to try haha.. i was gonna be late for my breadtalk survey at toa payoh sia.. =p

so end of the day, i got a pair of capri jeans & the white smaller size of the baby doll top and a dress ^^

cos amos think that dress is special and suits me ^^ so he ask me to try..

i said to him:

i try u buy ar?
LOL his aunt says: YES~!

yea.. so i got that dress ^^ $70

guess i'll be wearing that dress for our 5th yr anniversary celebration x)

after that i took cab down to breadtalk.. i was the last to reach even though everyone is late =<>how frequently do u purchase bread?
becomes :
ni duo jing chang mai mian bao?

KAOZ!!! ITS TOTALLY RETARDED LA...! *pengz*

and it doesn't help that the survey is a bit too long. my respondents are exhausted and a bit anyhow ans liao -.-

when i was doing my second survey form halfway, i suddenly felt very dizzy.. like gonna black out like last time in pri sch..

long time no lidat le.. most frequent period was in pri sch.. den in secondary sch lesser.. den aft secondary sch only about 2 or 3 times at work.. den recent 2 yrs.. tink once or twice nia.

i told the aunty to excuse me for a minute while she complete the form by herself.. i went outside breadtalk there the staircase n squat down.. malu seh.. i wearing dress. den i called faith to come save me.. rachel was nearby too.. so she helped me complete the form with the aunty..

aft tat faith acc me to macdonald's to sit down.. n helped me buy milo & curly fries..

usually when i m in that kinda situation, as long as i sat down, i should be better in about 5 minutes.. but that day took much longer it seems.. after i sat down i cant even sit straight for long.. muz lie down on the table on my arms.. hmm for about one ciggarette's time haha cos faith took a stick lolx.. then faith's bf came to fetch her le.. so i sit a while more.. slowly drink the milo den feel better le.. den slowly eat the curly fries.. cos i scared i mite puke..

when i reached mac i already called amos to come over and bring me home.. cos he was somewhat nearby, in view of a MRT map.. he was at dhoby ghaut netzspiel [the lan shop] and toa payoh on the MRT map is red line oso.. =p bout 5 stops? hor elizabeth? kekekex..
when i much better le i walked over to the mrt station to meet amos.. by then i much much better le.. dun wanna disappoint my cookie.. so i asked him to continue our plan of watching movie.. =) but when i reach bugis and walk about before the show start, i feel dizzy again.. but not as bad..

we watched X-Men.. haha i never even watched X-Men 1 and 2.. totally dunno wadz gg on.. but i enjoyed the show la =)

HAHA den the last part very funny.. cos i never followed the x-men story before, so i didnt knew about the characters' names.. the other day, my colleague was telling another colleague bout the ending.. but blur me, tot he saying wad sia. cos he said:

eh u noe the ending, jean say: would u die for them? den he reply, no i would die for u. den he *toot* her dead.

i was like: huh!!!

hahahahahaha cos my work place got one jean.. i tot they go movie together HAHA! but of cos, i shut up. nv even breath to kevin bout this haahhahaha if not later get into trouble =p

aft the movie, i tot of gg over to bugis village to get a cup of coconut juice den take bus 12 home.. cos i hate to take train home when i m very tired.. still hafta stand all the way home sia.. den my big cookie told me that he hafta go home by 12.

i'm like: W T F CAN.

cos 51 saturdays in a yr, he stays in netzspiel the lan shop till wee hours in the morning or do u call u breakfast timing -.- n 51 saturdays in a yr, i m working.

this happen to be one of the damn rare saturdays that i m OFF on a SAT LA! den he gotta choose this sat n give me this kinda shit -.- when all i ask if he reaching home at 12.45am.. not even ask him send me home sia.. ask him drop off bus 12 at his house there sia..

den i was damn du lan.

he machiam tink that i is unreasonable n do not have the right to be angry. N HE NeVER explaIN why the sudden good-boy-ness la.

i was so angry so angry.. actually i very very tired, but i still called n see if elmo or jingyang wanna go supper -.- i'll juz stay out for a while to spite him -.- but momo got bsc party n jingyang is busy preparing for shanghai trip =/

when he got off the train n walking home time, den i called him and ask him wtf does he sound like i got no right to be angry, when 51 sats a yr, i'm working and he is gaming till wee hours, and PURPLELY MUZ THIS SAT when i OFF den gimme this kinda cinderella shit -.-"

thEN he explain to me -.- he long should have said la bth.

ok the reason quite valid. but i tink he never handle the problem well this time.
nvm, as his gal, i shall educate him n help him be his diplomate on such stuff in future -.-
dun ask wadz the matter.. cos its very very private n personal de cos of his family prob de.

=]

his plan for celebrating our fifth yr anniversary is:

Plan A: we have dinner at that dunno-wad-sounds-fukin-ex steak restaurant at paragon; den we go to wine company and chill [knn why go wine company muz support villa bali =x]
Plan B: since national day is on a wednesday, anniversary is on thurs, why not we take thurs and fri off n go overseas holiday from wednesday to sunday [=.= . .. ... .. .]

haha.. at least he is utilising much brain cells to come up with these romAntIC ideas.. =p
me was thinking.. :

Plan A: open a chalet and invite all those friends and family who have been supporting us since we first started the relationship..
Plan B: we cook up a spread for dinner at his house for his parents and grandma to thank them for the support these 5yrs and the trouble we have given them

cos to me, i believe that a couple to be able to be together for long, is definitely not juz 有情喝水饱.. to be able to survive together pass the honeymoon period of lovey-dovey-imseparable-malt-candyness, n brave through the meet the parents/ family /buddies / colleagues sessions, definitely need the support of these people who loves the couple as One or as a Pair..

like i agree with Gao Yi Ping's father [Gao Yi Ping is a famous taiwanese TV host who co-hosted the marriage show],

marrying a man is not just marrying he himself, u are marrying his family, his culture, his country.

i oso understand that without supportive family and frens, who do not shoot poisonous darts behind each of us, infront of the other of us, is very important.. cos no matter how much u love each other, how long can u tahan this kinda mental torment? x) afterall, isnt there an ancient saying somewhere that sounds like, wadever thing truth or false, if u heard it more than 7 times, u would believe it as truth? LOL..

imagine: 7 people telling him i m a bitch, everyday, every meal LOL!

haha of cos i not saying that he is himbo.. juz that, he is but a human too.. if given that kinda pressure by people who have loved him n been by his side for 17 years at least, how is he to stand firm by his belief for a gal he noes barely 1 yr then? afterall, those people didnt start with an evil intention towards him should they be weary of me =]

my brother was the #1 against this relationship back then.. cos my family is different.. my brother started working since secondary sch, n gave up studies during A levels to go out work.. n since then he had been working hard in hope of giving my mama n me a better life.. he never had as much fun as wad peer of his age does.. at 18 ppl go club to rave, he go clubS to work.. he had believed that the responsibility of a father is now on his shoulders to take care of me since then.. so he was very very protective of me.. he wun wan me to get hurt. he didnt wan me to regret my choices only later..

i nearly broke up with amos cos of this..

haha i still remember wad the bookshop uncle said.. lolx.. the bookshop uncle dotes on amos a lot.. he always hangs around the bookshop for a chat with the uncle.. oh, we dunno his name.. the whole bedok south sec calls his bookshop uncle, everyone loves him =)

that morning i called amos n told him we cant be together anymore cos of my bro.. he panic and rush down to sch.. but i was in class already.. x) later the bookshop uncle told me that i tell him this he immediately rush down n kanchiong until wanna cry le =]

my mama best. she noes wadz good when she sees one.. she says:

haiz.. u juz say u break le la.. juz lie low for some time.. nex time den say la..
lolx.. that day, i was telling her amos mite be going off to australia to study after his NS for 5 years.. den she ask if i was worried that he mite bring a caucasian gal back.. i say, not that i m worry of that, i m worry wad if any of us finds that we are not suited for each other for the rest of our life only aft we commit for so many yrs? afterall we were together since sec sch days, and haven seen much of other types of ppl.. wad if we only regret aft marriage? isnt that worse?

she being very supportive of her son-in-law n prospective son-in-law candidate, says:

aiya, to us people with ample experience looking at people, this guy is quite good le, his temper, attitude and all.. now very few young man like him le..
haha! its either her son in laws are really very very good, if not she muz be afraid that her two daughters are such dinosaurs that guys dun dare come forward. so when got brave young man, muz tied them up LOLX!

no la. i oso agree that amos & andrew are A grade HAHAHAHAHA~!

so this shows how important family & frens play their role in relationships isn't it? =)

though my principle is that i would not allow a third person[be it the vixen or the mother] apart from the 2 in the relationship, to affect decisions in the relationship; i would say that such influences [be it vixen or the mother] are positive, as the people in a relationship tends to be blinded by the surging of hormones HAHA! so these people will play the role of reminding them certain issues to be considered about..

yea. so lidat lorx. hmmm.. this post very long.. haha.. i is not feeling too well now..

oh then today, Sunday , i met amos and his parents for dinner at pepper lunch O.o
ok la, not bad la the service got improve a bit. actually the whole complain thingy oso regarding the fat man only la haha.. val got prob when she went there with terence ma. go check out her blog lolx.. den when i went with amos the last time i oso not good impression..

today not bad i muz say. especially the young cashier. very good attitude ^^ very GST + Sincere leh. GST = Greet Smile Thank. i tink she's really good cos she smiles with her heart de lor. not like that kinda plastic plastic wan.. smile n say thx to the change and receipt and not in ur face at ur eyes.. lolx.. thumbs up!

hmm.. busy week ahead i forecast.. will be working like cow in sch throughout.. these two weeks.. cos mid sem test come liaox.. not workin for 2 weeks..

wa.. scare me sia.. cos i already settled with my manager that i cant work for two weeks due to my mid sem test.. den my boss unawared, called me on sat to ask if i did not put my schedule.. *phew*

i resolut to return to work in 2 weeks time, a more confident gal.

oh since this wk is so busy, i guess the only *time-out* will be thursday gonna get some stuffs with si yun aft i get my pay on thurs, den sunday either juz chill out or blade with amos in the afternoon, or if elmo n ting they all are ok den probly we go kbox n vent the stress before the test? kekekex..

muahaha.. look forward to get new shorts, slippers, wedges, mascara & One Good Nite CLUBBING~!!!

oh. birthdays.

happy birthday to jacqueline and shiru for 29th may~!
happy birthday to hui ling for 25th may~!
happy birthday to gavin for 26th may~!
happy birthday to kenny for 20th june~!

and last but not least, soh elmo. happy birthday on 1st june, not to remind u of ur disappointments, but to remind u of the wonderful things in life, be it teeny weeny itsy bitsy or juz the size of an atom =) remember this day that ur mama anticipated for 9months and was 100 times more excited when she finally met u, den the first time u met ur cousin when he was few days old x)

i remember reading somewhere that may & june is the period of time with the most baby booms de leh haha why ar? lolx..

counting backwards, 9 months before june would be somewhere october.. isit cos during that time, the weather cooler, so couples snuggle more n *POP* more babies? =P
that time is monsoon season, so more rain more lightning. so fits the dramatic bill of "in this dark cold rainy nite with lightning.. two young people gets together.." kakakax.. this one u muz be bilingual and watches chinese dramas to understand =p
cos its near end of the yr, so gonna get bonus cash soon, and abundance of public holidays, so people start to get the holiday mood, n get relaxed, so when they get more relaxed, the sperms got better chance of sneaking their way through? somemore, when ppl in relax mood, mite be in better mood more often to get a good "work out" hahahahhahaha!
makes sense rite? =P
OH YA! Friday.. lolx.. friday got services marketing individual journal test.. i was stressing about how to do.. cos i like quite cannot remember or make much link of the observation done at ritz carlton liaox.. den met alvin darryl shawn n their proj grp for lunch.. thx to alvin & darryl's help, i managed to write 2 page+ for the IJ ^^ initially tot i wun be able to scrap out more than a page haha! but aft i add in theory den got liao =p n thx shawn for cursing me =p lolx.. he keep stressing semester 4.1 haha.. like that time i stress kenny when he was considering going club some where before his exam lolx..
okies.. enuf is enuf. i write 3 or 4 posts in one sia.. madness. okie. bed time. ^^

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Friday, May 26, 2006

On a Lighter Note

well since yesterday's post a bit depressing, today i will try to have a happier post? haha

i'll try.. cos now quite stress.. its 4.24am n i juz done bit of proj, n tml there is the service marketing individual journal 1hr test, n i m worried that my bit of proj is not good enuf, n i m worried that having not rest enuf today, will i get into trouble at work tml.. yada yada yada..

on tuesday, i was abt to be late for lesson n my brother forgot to atm for me my allowance for this wk.. so quite kan chiong. juz nice elmo called to ask if i m going for jac's bday.. den i say no $. he say really meh.. den the very-stress-up-at-that-time-Me vomit the whole chunk of words at him hahaha.. den he very steady lor, he say:

relac.. u now take cab to sch la i wait for u n help u pay first.
=) in the end i got enuf $ la. but after sch when i meet him a while, he said he got $25 today, n put $15 on the table and ask me take first in case later i go work time need. den he run off le.

lucky he pass me that money first.. cos at nite the mini van towards east is shared with the north side people.. so the four of us who stay in the east have to share cab home first then claim..
end up the cab fare $30+ lor..

thankx elmo..
=) other than thx i dunno how to tell this good fren of mine how much i appreciate it x)
a fren in need is a true fren indeed..

i m so blessed hor? got a wonderful boyfren n got good frens like elmo, kenny n many morE!

n tml my new HumbLe MRT fren, Alvin will accompany me eat lunch & study for my IJ test.. x)

oooH! last wk, i needed to find someone to replace one day of my work day this wk, cos i could not work on one of the days.. as part of our project, we have to conduct survey at BreadTalk Toa Payoh.. though pretty unwilling, Kevin still agreed to help me.. n last wk we went out oso cos i finish sch n not working, very un-used to the arrangement so ask him go out with me last min, and he agree lor! tink he waited for me for an hour ar.. x) i shall remember to treat him nicer at work hahaha

today, i was preoccupied in my mind bout how to pass jacqueline back her blazer the nex day, that i didnt noticed when my wallet dropped on the bus..

once i noticed that my wallet seems to be absent when i drop off the bus, my immediate reaction is to look at the just left bus's car plate number so that in case i really lost my wallet, i can trace back.. [we at tampines bus interchange]

indEED! i lost my wallet x)

i raced to the office where the bus drivers would punch in after they return to the terminal to lodge a report.. den the route master told me that the bus driver has not came in yet, probably in the toilet or tidying up the bus.. i can juz wait a while by the side..

i went out to update si yun bout the reply of the route master.. haha poor si yun was dropped far far by me when i realise my wallet lost n i have to race towards the office =P
oh ya. si yun is my new fren from cds.. somehow hit off pretty well with her ^^ first time i make fren in CDS [not becos of proj sia]

so happen the driver came walking in with my wallet in his hand when i was talking to si yun at the door..

haha they were asking if there is anything to identify myself in the wallet.. so i say there is a compartment where my ezlink card with my name n picture is.. haha! while they dig, me & amos's recent photo card dropped out.. den i was like: neh neh! my photo!

hahaha they were joking with me, comparing my face n the photo lolx.. very nice people =)

was so worried bout my internship company initially.. till i heard that jin siong got back his old job at royal sporting house as a sales assistant.. =_=! his results damn damn damn good de can! i tot people like him n elmo would go to big fuk companies and do real marketer's job.. tat's y i felt so bimbotic bout myself.. but now, heeheehee.. i got the urge to ask my boss if i can do my current job but as part of my internship programme =P

i noe wad u tinking.. wad has a chill out bar to do with marketing? GOT!

Service Marketing & Integrated Marketing ok~

look at wad we r doing bout ritz carlton in service marketing lor.. so y not? =P

but elmo says -.- that is a job for hospitality students.. n i m degrading Marketing Diploma if i do that -.-"

well.. while researching for my consumer behavior, i chance upon the employment ad for IKEA Tampines.. heeheehee.. though it says tampines, it is actually 10 minutes slow walk from my house HAHA!

[relax this is NOT real IKEA employment ad haha!]

to refresh ya memory, my house is somewhere near the junction where tampines ave 10 & pasir ris drive 12 meets.. so it is damn near HAHA!

n alvin who is shifting to pasir ris soon, is keen on doing internship at IKEA with me too!
not bcos of IKEA tampines though =) even if we are to work at IKEA Queenstown we oso dun mind ^^ especially me, SUPER DUN MIND!!! cos i dun tink villa bali will lemme take 3 months off during internship =<>

though i had been grouchy for most parts of tonite, n biting on amos pretty often, but dear dear would be so glad if he noes that i manage to clear out the dark clouds in my mind before i sleep n laugh heartily along this entry ^^

[somehow my theory of writing down thoughts will help clear up my mind n get me more optimistic is correct ^^ cos i began this post a bit bit grouchy n now i feel betta ^^]

i miss my dear dear.. seems long time since we last have quality time together.. cos its either i m too busy and tired or he is =<

ok.. i m off to catch my 2 hours worth of sleep before going to consumer behavior tutorial ^^

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Thursday, May 25, 2006

Story of the Silver Bird

my manager was sharing this story with us on tuesday..

there was an old man who lived in the mountains..
he was picking herbs in the mountain when he spotted an injured bird, one day.
the bird had beautiful coat of silver feathers..
the old man decided to save the bird n bring it home to heal.

throughout the days the silver bird was healing at the old man's humble hut,
the silver bird sings heavenly tunes to the old man, in appreciation.

till one day, a cunning neighbour of the old man passed by the hut and heard the heavenly tunes the silver bird was singing for the old man.
the jealous neighbour came up with an evil plan.

the old man met the neighbour one morning at the bazaar.
the neighbour told the old man:
hey u know recently, came a bird in the mountain we live in,
that is gold in colour, and sings even more marvelously than the silver bird u have!

greed led the old man.
the old man no longer goes home early to enjoy the melodious tune of the silver bird;
instead, each day, the old man went in search of the gold bird he had heard about,
from sunrise till sunset.

then came the day when the silver bird is healed, and time for it to leave the hut.

the old man did not ask the bird to stay by his side.
he told the bird:

u are beautiful, and ur songs are very nice indeed. but i m sorry, i would
desire to have the gold bird which is said to sing even better than u do..

the silver bird dedicated a last tune for the old man, and flew off towards the setting sun.

looking at the silhouette of the silver bird,
with the reflection of the setting sun tainting the feathers gold,
then the old man realised,

this is the gold bird he had been looking for.
but its all too late; the silver bird will not return to him anymore.
the silver bird had been the gold bird that he had heard about.

moral of the story?

cherish what u have. there will always be better ones out there, but there is no end to the seek if your well of desire has no depth.

this story came at the right time.. at a time when i was having some dilemmas.. thinking wad if, after being with my man for 5 yrs n more to come, wad if, he is not the man that is suitable for me, for life? wad if i only regret after marriage? after all, i have been revolving my life around him n my buddies [mostly guys] throughout secondary sch, pre entry to poly, and poly life thus far.. i haven really met other guys. so how do i noe if he is really the one for me?

the story provided me the answer.

thx johnson [the new johnson at work, not the Q-Bar johnson =) ]
juz as i share the last post with elmo & lizbird and touched lizbird, johnson's story came at the rite time for me x)

right after i wrote a post regarding this story and my dilemma in my other blog which is annonymous, [dont ask. its annonymous. duH~] i suddenly recall of a malaysian blogger who was in coma after a car accident since 8th april..

another blogger, Hokkien Lang [his link in my online list] participated in recruiting people from the blogosphere to record sound clips of encouragement for SiaoCharbor aka Lisa. so i saw from his blog last month regarding this. from the link left of lisa's blog, her frens in reality and blogosphere had opened another blog to log down her recovery..

i had wanted to email one of the contributors' to the blog to see if there is anything i can help; probably like if i can help go down to the hospital once a while, to visit lisa n keep everyone posted of her recovery.. she has transferred from msia gleneagles to singapore dunno which hospital.. den i went on to check out one of the contributor's blog..

in one of her recent entries, i noticed that she is a single parent of 2 little gals.. i was curious why she's single and how she cope with 2 little gals n still able to look so pretty n is working.. so i read on.. it doesnt seem like a divorce.. cos when she does mentions abt her husband, is still quite lovingly.. as i read on den i realise that her husband die last yr july..

she's really a strong woman..

as i read the post of the day she found her husband to be ill, till the day she suspect her husband mite be down with some kind of deadly illness, till the day he is gone.. i cried.

i tried thinking myself in her shoe.. i wouldnt be able to be as strong as she is..

he had always been fit, backpacker around the world.. n they are juz 30+.. for the gal she is same age as my sister.. 32.. yr of tiger.. their 2 daughters are still so tiny.. one juz turning 3yrs old in july n the other turning 5 in august..

from the diagnosis till his demise - 3 months..

n for lisa, 2 days before she fell into a coma, she was still ranting on her blog about how she nearly got a car accident that day..

all this is so so so sudden..

not sure bout the arrangement for lisa's little gal, but should have someone taking care of her.. n jomel's 2 princesses has strong mama and granny and aunts to take care of them.. at tis time, i tot of my uncle's little gal.

i had been avoiding this topic.. didnt really wan to talk about my uncle's death.. cos i still find it hard to accept..

he had always been strong.. the joker in the family.. a good brother, a good fren.. he would have been a good father.. magnanimous man. he died a very lonely death.. he suicided. jumped off the building..

his wife had not been in a good mental condition recent years.. the little gal he had adopted for about juz a few yrs back, is only pri 3 this yr..

my aunts are there to help take care of this little gal.. but they cant be there 24/7..

all these things comes so sudden..

in the post i wanted to cite the examples of this people n share with u'all bout cherishing.. but sorry.. i'm quite sleepy now, n caught up with a bit of tears n some messed up thoughts.. i dunno how to continue this post..

ok. source of references:

lisa's blog: http://garglewithseawater.blogspot.com/
for lisa by frens' blog: http://forscb.blogspot.com/
jomel's blog: http://www.justmeoonly.blogspot.com/
hokkien lang's blog: http://hokkienlang.blogsome.com/

lots of things are easier said than done.. but doing a bit is better than none at all.. juz try n take that step forward..

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Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Quest for Happiness

haha wad m i doing here.. i is suppose to be burying myself amongst the research articles of Sony Ericsson and BreakTalk and Ikea and Ritz Carlton now..

*slap maself up down left right*

well anywayz, since i'm here, finally, after much deliberation with my angel & devil for many days regarding if i shld come blogging,

i shall do a post =P

a close fren of mine juz posted an entry saying he do not believe in birthday wishes anymore cos every yr he wished for happiness, but they never once came through.

hey dude!

while u obstinately stick ur head into the mud and refuse to count any other little happiness and fortune blessed and bestow to u, u have already missed a large part of Happiness that is granted to u..

n such things is usually a vicious cycle.. u ignore this little happiness granted to u, and u chose to be wallowing in self pity n sadness, other things that mite have came to u if u had not enclosed urself up in sadness, had been turned away by no one else but u.. den all the more u will miss out more happiness.. or perhaps even the ONE happiness that u were actually obstinate abt..

isnt it always the case, when we are searching for an object urgently and obstinately, that the object will not turn up in fronta us? =)

appreciate the little things granted to u in life..

[taking a leaf outta HER bible,]

dude, things happen for a reason, no matter how small.. dun ignore the will of god =]

hahahahhahahahha lucky i not gg lecture tml, if not my head will have bums done by u aft u see this entry =P

not saying that u do not appreciate things and take things for granted.. wad i mean is, when u wallow in self pity n beat urself up tinking u is such an ass, pls go count the little things u r granted, and u will realise u actually have lotsa happiness! n once ur mood turns lighter, the dark clouds in ur brain will clear, n u will be able to see more things more clearly, and make more outta it =D

i noe u r magnanimous and is very appreciative of things even though u dun say often.. =) i noe u love me hell loads, dont'ya? hahahahahhahahaha!

so, use this ability and MAKE happiness, instead of wishing and waiting more ya? *hugx*

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Monday, May 15, 2006

Diving Deep into the Horn.

=] the title settles for a post; that is if the reader is super bilingual ya? = p

anywayz, ever since getting down with heavy flu in first wk of sch, my appetite haven been good.. i was like only having soup for dinner for several evenings tat week at work. my appetite haven really return now.. especially at dinner time. lunch time somehow i can still eat quite a lot.

guess its due to my unduly worry with relates to the post title, n cos dinner time often coincides with work. having dinner at work.. aint enjoyable. especially recently, added by my uncalled for worries.

very very very exhausted too. even my colleague noticed my listlessness & me wilthering away.

nevertheless, i still rush around like MRT at work provided its busy enough to keep me from thinking any other stuffs. [the indian food runner like to call me MRT cos i walk very fast when i wan to get things done.]

wednesday wasnt working.. went out to chill.. oh ya. thats blogged down in the S-Day post before this already.

thursday finished work at 3am, n went drinking with jingyang at ECP till daybreak. haha the sight is funny.. u dun usually see ppl drinking early in the morning at 7am rite.. yea we drank till the sky turn bright n puking due to drinking early in the morning. LOL. i didnt get wasted though i was the more troubled one, although we both are quite troubled hahaha!

finished work at 3am would means me reaching home at 4.30am if i take the company transport.. tt means meeting jy at 5am haha.. so he drove down at 3 to drive us back to his house there to park his car, den we take cab down to ecp to drink..

we had a can of asahi each n i took 1 can of the 6pack heineken n he cleared the rest.. way too fast.. so end up merlion..

really nice fren ya? fortnight ago i was sick n i ask him come "save" me from my workplace cos i was worried of fainting halfway home.. he came without hesitating. den last wk acc me somemore =]

on friday, i was way tooOOOOOoo tired from work.. keep dozing off at the supper table.. in fact, during debrief i already dozed off standing.. good that there is the tall table as backing.. otherwise my heavy sling back keep making me lopsided.. at supper i only had half bowl of rice.. that is like NEVER before lor.. i always eats hell loads.. but something tat really made my evening is that junquan called me n the reason being: it seems like i haven called him for a long time hahaha silly elmo.. =) wad was wednesday abt? lolx..

however, some things at work really bogs me down.. n i m really praying that those gossip mongers dun get me into trouble again. i always neutral but juz appear at the wrong place at the wrong time n have the wrong contacts n juz get implicated for nothing lor.. haiz..

den something really cool last wk is i got a new fren: alvin. YES U! Environmentalist or Naturalist? haha dunno la. nwayz, my new fren alvin is bestowed by ting, who was bestowed to me by elmo =D really really really thankful that i get these great frens recently.. =) i hope i can be with them for a long long time.. really love being with them.. teaches me so much about being a friend, n bestowing me so much fun n laughter.. =]

oh ya, haven say why so click with alvin. cos he is so like kenny! my buddy since sec sch =) but of cos, he is not a duplicate of kenny la. he is him =]

haiz.. feel so alone.. so many things dunno how to do. dear dear n momo has been trying to help me loads, but some things, i juz have to learnt by myself..

i is sleepy.. dunno wad i talking liaox. if any thing reads or sounds weird in this post, dun get any hard feelings first ya? tell me.. cos most 99.9% likelihood is i is too slpy.. put the text in wrong order.. x)

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Thursday, May 11, 2006

S-Day

S for School
S for Shopping
S for Socializing

haha today is S day. cos i went to school till afternoon, then i went shopping a little, then i juz came back from ~~slacking~~ socializing.

went to school all blur this morning. (T.T)
so touched. its turns out no free rider in my team. everyone is moving ^^

den after proj discussion, i went back to white sands to check out if this giordano outlet got the jacket which i saw at suntec city..

den i went out n walked along the new stretch of shops at the train station..

n saw this shop selling accessories which i do not tink the price & quality matches..

den this gifts shop where there is a zippo lighter showcase which has relatively little range of designs..

den the silver accessories shop where they oso sell lighters - zippo look alike..
$18, somemore the design nicer than those in the zippo showcase. so i juz went in n told the guy i wan that. after i paid den i realise:

its not zippo
=.= .. . .. ... .. .

i dun wanna settle for second best for amos.. but i oso dun wanna get juz the brand zippo.. i wan a design tt amos will like.. >.<

tink i will either take the lighter go chg a necklace or something, or i keep the lighter n buy a zippo for amos ^^

will hafta thx alvin in advance, cos he gonna help me find nice zippo lighters, ya alvin? *cheshire cat grinz*

then juz now met up with junquan, hong guan, kenny, and alvin after i watch da chang jin =P

we went to chill at the mac near CPF at tampines..

talk cock a lot sia hahaha cant stop laughing when hong guan is around lolx.

a nice word of this meeting would be: Socializing.
a not so nice word but factual would be: Slacking.

^^ i is happy.

tml working until 3am. bless me.

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

4 years 9 months

*blissful smile in a tai tai fashion*

lolx.. 4 yrs 9 mths le.. but in these time tgther, i tink 4yrs 5mths if amos putting in most effort to sayang me ^^ i only sayang him 4mths wor =P

recently when i m very stress, very bad mood, very grouchy & jumpy, he still tries his best to coax me.. to find time to accompany me n find things to make me feel better =)

wad should i get for our 5th yr anniversary sia?

~`'*counting down to 10th August*'`~
hope we can hold strong pass at least 2 more major transitions in our life.. den perhaps then we will be stable in terms of mentality.. n decide that we would continue with each other? =]

transition --- going through NS, going to tertiary studies, going out to work..

the two final transitions after going through 3 already in our near 5yrs relationship =]

~'`*hope*`'~

a song from Zhao Yong Hua long ago =P
[ have to change encoding before reading on ok.. unicode 8 ]
最浪漫的事 - 赵咏华
背靠着背坐在地毯上
听听音乐聊聊愿望
你希望我越来越温柔
我希望你放我在心上
你说想送我个浪漫的梦想
谢谢我带你找到天堂
哪怕用一辈子才能完成
只要我讲你就记住不忘
我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
一路上收藏点点滴滴的欢笑
留到以后坐着摇椅慢慢聊
我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
直到我们老的哪儿也去不了
你还依然把我当成手心里的宝
背靠着背坐在地毯上
听听音乐聊聊愿望
你希望我越来越温柔
我希望你放我在心上
你说想送我个浪漫的梦想
谢谢我带你找到天堂
哪怕用一辈子才能完成
只要我讲你就记住不忘
我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
一路上收藏点点滴滴的欢笑
留到以后坐着摇椅慢慢聊
我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
直到我们老的哪儿也去不了
你还依然把我当成手心里的宝
我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
一路上收藏点点滴滴的欢笑
留到以后坐着摇椅慢慢聊
我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
直到我们老的哪儿也去不了
你还依然把我当成手心里的宝
*blush & run around in circles in a bimbotic fashion*

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MeSterious
LOL~!

over lunch today, i was told a very funny fact about myself which i never never never knew or eben the tiniest atom in my pathetic frame thought about it. roflmao..

ok. the story goes lidat..

me n ting left sales management lect halfway cos we dun have the correct notes cos the lecturer put last year's notes online n ting [and 1/5 more of the people] printed the whole semester worth -.-"

den ting say she going to eat with raine. so me wander off.. waiting for kenny to finish tutorial.. n acc pathetic me.

actually i wanted to go to the computer lab and whine in my blog.. but the reception there sux.. so after much wandering aimlessly in the campus, i decided to go back to my old, familiar, smelly biz school. i sat at a bench outside the computer labs the garden there.. n attempted to blog on a piece of paper first -.-" den my new fren alvin sms me if i wan join them at mensa for lunch.

anywayz, we ended up in ITAS new foodcourt..

when we finally sat down to eat, alvin introduce me to kevin. actually i noe who they ALL are. but they dunno me nia ma. lolx.

[ jialat now i got ting's virus le la.. i read kevin as ke vin =..= ! ]

the introduction goes lidat:

kevin this is joyce, u didnt noe she's from our course rite? =P

=.= .....

there~ the gal who always left first during tests~ got big head phone de~

kevin:
OH YA OH YA!

=.= .....

thx ar..

lolx.. den they gone on to ask me:

so ur results very good isit?
[ no.. ]
y u always like loner lidat?
[ cos my frens all slackers.. =P ]
y like we ask around like nobody noe u wan?
[ =.= ... ]
u introvert isit?
[ how can i be introvert when
i only noe alvin for less den a wk
n i crap with him until he go nuts LOL~! ]

pengz.. den someone mention i like mysterious mysterious de.. =.= ..
er.....

i didnt noe that i m so " noticed " in my course hahahahahha~!

cos i either only keep to my grp or keep to my sec sch guys or i m alone through out my days in poly so far..

hmmm.. come to tink of it.. i never socialize much in sch wor. other than japanese cultural grp.. hmmm.. i have been working n hang with my sec sch guys or i stick to kenny de wor.

den like only since the holiday of end of semester 2.2 den i got socialize with my course people OuTside of my proj group woR!

jun quan lor. hang around quite a bit during the hols with him.. den got to noe yi ting.. den got to noe alvin..

come to tink of it, today is the day i hang with so many marketers from other class wor.

haiz. i is a pathetic autistic moron. worse den yin sean roflmao~!

kaoz even yin sean oso out socializing liao loR! ever since he joined dragonboat he like socialize loads woR! *applause*

*recalling the days when he sat in class for 2 yrs without being noticed.. n we believe his crap when he say he wasnt in bedok south for sec 1.. cos we didnt notice him around ma.. den sec 4 time he still very autistic.. den i always go make a lot of noise around him.. keep talking n talking n talking.. 90% is my voice roflmao~!*

*move back focus from sean to me -.-*

tsk tsk tsk.. how the hell is this happening..

how the hell i m able to talk to strangers bout all sorta stuff during work, n actually only hang with my coursemates today~!!! n my cohort is like so tiny only lor~! bout 5 classes of 24 students each?!

=.= ...

i missed out a lot of fun sia.. tsk tsk tsk..

oh anyways, thx alvin for asking me along ^^

though a bit stunned , but.. its so fun to noe that there are ppl who noticed u n even discuss bout u (= . =)

but the part that nobody noe me ish in marketing a bit exaggerate la kevin.. at least jasmine noe me? =P

jasmine is the first person i noe when i came into marketing haha. met at the orientation of marketing.

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Nothing is going right.

nothing seems to go right.

shut up if u gonna ask me to look on the bright side n not being a pest by being pessimistic.

thank u very much.
i wanted to change a blogskin. something with lesser details. so i can have a less cluttered mind, or allow me to have lesser feeling of being stuffed in.

blogger could not show the entire html script for my current skin. i wanted to keep a copy of it before i change the template. so i cant chg the skin now. but mayb if i get pissed enough i will delete the whole damn thing n chg a all new one.

this is but a small problem.
yes indeed.

but like i had said before,

once u have a blister on ur foot cos of this damn shoe, u will feel sore no matter wad other shoe u chg into immediately. cos the open wound is there, being sensitive still.the ripple effect.

i had always been emo often, though most of the time i m over-rational.
but this time is the worst emo-strike i ever had.

i noe i muz stand up, fast enough.

but i do reserve the right to whine.

i really need to vent out. i really feel very bogged down.. very stuffed.. very misfit..

the cure?

a good fren, a good nite of club, a good round of booze.
a heck care day.

i m but a very normal person. it is only that long that i can convince myself, cheat myself, n smoke the audience that i m strong.

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Tuesday, May 09, 2006

I'm Back.

yo.. i is back to blog muahaha..

a lot of thing to write sia. so much that now i dunno to write the tail first or the head first rofl.

anyways, i'll try to blog as much as i can tonite haha

actually this is the first post i type tonite.. but i'll put it at the top =P cos the rest tt i gonna or mite type will be pretty random topics.. so this post is to prep u in case u read until blur kekekex!

time now is 12.10am

i wun be staying online for too long cos tml got sch ^^

***update***
haha the time now is 1.40am.. i wanted to blog.. but i met a fren on msn n we started discussing abt the push cart.. n its time for me to go slp now.. x)

thou shalt resolut not to on msn nex time when i wanna blog =P

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Friday, May 05, 2006

I Want To Update. but I Can Update?

haiz. many very very very interesting things happened. many juicy stuff to blog.

but.

i want to & i can is 2 different issue.

in summary, i will not update today. i will only update one issue.

the cap spree is off-ed. cos the person who tag on my board n ask me faster reply~ u see? shld still be able to see. if not click archives of chat log. yea. that person MIA.

oh the person added in her blog that the world is complicated, her words are mistakened. wow.

i dunno wad happened. [obvious la when i cant find her? -.-] but if its with context to this issue, thank u very much, but u thought too much.

n thank u very much for not telling me that u dun wanna do liao.

people whom i collected ur money, very very very sorry. by sunday no reply from the spree host, i'll c u on monday.

- shiru
- jiahui
- natalie
- dan ting

lucky the rest either oso drag n no give answer, if not no pay.

i gained 2 new frens today. i confirmed the lost of 1 fren today.

come, free riders.. come.. u ride for free, beware. free ride got no insurance of passing k? lao niang give u color halfway, send u for a ride with the shark k? hmmm.. halfway.. about the 6th wk in our metric.

the mock peer appraisal.

Happy Birthday~! Koh Yi Ting~!
Long Live to u n ur blog [both today birthday]~!

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