Friday, November 10, 2006
What the Fuck am I Doing?
i woke up earlier and rushed to school to do a report for work. i woke up later than i should, i took a cab down to school and took a cab to work. the paper and the files and the cab fares total $30.
i threw that report away into Joglo Bar's bin. cos i was very disappointed at some things.
in my moment of weakness, i was expecting that if i open up to someone supposedly my good sister, she would give me a little attention and make me feel less lonely and lost. but due to miscommunication, things went worse.
i called a brother since yesterday he ask if i want to go club today. but i tot i would be too occupied bout work so i declined. sent him a sms instead cos his side too noisy he can't hear me.
but he never reply..
mayb the place reception bad? mayb the dance floor too squeezy? mayb battery low.
but either way i shouldnt be upset and disappointed. cos i wasnt even supposed to be holding this expectation, this anticipation at all.
they don't owe me.
i m the one who screwed myself into this mess.
i called mac delivery even though i wasnt very keen on eating. neither am i keen on waiting for about an hour for its arrival.
what the fuck am i doing?
i is so fuktard.
though late, but she finally realise i m indeed not OK. so she smsed me to find out and so on. and said she would call me after she's done supper with her boy. but i decline.. i dunno is i scared rejection or wad. but either way, i m the one who asked for attention. i m the one who push people away. what the fuck am i doing?
now she's a bit sad cos she felt useless that she cant do anything to help me.
reminds me of the time when momo wants to talk, but miscommunication, and he felt that i won't understand.. so he shuts off.. and i sit there crying some nites cos i felt useless not being able to do anything for my buddy.
sorry my dear. pls don't feel sad.. u dun owe me..Labels: My Contradiction
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Joyce Tan
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